I'll be upfront. This isn't going to be the most "uplifting" blog. Everything within my being would like to talk about all the amazing things that are going on in the world - because there ARE amazing things going on the world. However, be it the media or the negative creatures around us, I (as well as the rest of the world) seems to be conditioned towards all the horrendous events going on the world. With that being said, I believe that I have become numb. The news saddens me. It's hard to have meaningful conversations with those I consider "friends like family" because I know so many people who are struggling. However, my recent "emotion" with everything has just been a certain numbness.
How did I come to notice this? Well, to be honest, the whole thing with the tsunami is what is making me think about this. I'm really overwhelmed with the number of people that have perished, and that the number is still climbing. I'm overwhelmed with what they as a people must be going through. However, I feel like I don't have enough compassion. I feel like, my thoughts go along this pattern. "Wow. That's insane. I feel bad for them." How uncompassionate is that? However, I think that with the war stuff, all the violence and crime that happens on a daily basis, not to mention all the ficticious violence that we expose ourselves to frequently, I have let myself become numb to what is really going on in the world, and what crisis really exists.
Here's an example of what I mean. I saw the movie "The Day After Tomorrow" not that long ago. Here I am, watching a movie about the world being destroyed by these forces of nature. We see these kinds of movies all the time - where people are perishing left and right. And it's all fake, right? You aren't necessarily emotionally invested because you know the actors and actresses involved, you know that it's taking place in some studio or being digitally created, and it creates this line of seperation in one's head that "It's ok. They're not really hurt." Now, I don't want to make this sound like a little kid who doesn't know that Santa Claus isn't real, however, is it possible that these kinds of movies, and the oversaturation in the media is causing a possible numbness? I know I sure feel it... And maybe it was self created. It doesn't matter. It exists. And it makes me sick to my stomach...
So how do I become a more culturally sensitive person? How do I show more compassion? How do I live a life that's worth living - loving people like they've never been loved before? I'm not entirely sure... There are so many people and situations in the world that need a tremendous amount of passion and love. World Aids Day was not that long ago. During Christmas, there are always telethons for this disease or that disease. There were so many people being fed at the homeless shelters here in Milwaukee on Christmas even, it was insane. All these situations, all these people... Compassion and love. Christ set up an amazing example for us, but it's a hard act to follow, you know?
I pray for a life like that, that can be lived full of compassion and love...
12.30.2004
12.28.2004
window sessions
hello my friends. it's that time once again to post a new playlist... I know, you can hardly contain your excitement.
some of the songs on my playlist are old. some are new. but let me say, I have never enjoyed a playlist as much as this one. I'm not entirely sure why, but I absolutely love listening to it.
so, here goes... the window sessions
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight - Postal Service
My December - Linkin Park
Work - Jimmy Eat World
Beautiful Ways - Pat McGee Band
The Boy's Gone - Jason Mraz
In Other Words - Ben Kweller
A Lack of Color - Death Cab for Cutie
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
True - Ryan Cabrera
Grace - Nicole Nordman covering U2
Elevator Beat - Nancy Wilson
Flyin High - Jem
Such Great Heights - Iron & Wine covering Postal Service
Life Can't Grow - Zoppi
Lucky - Seven Mary Three
Fair - Remy Zero
Carry On - Kadence
Streamside - The Album Leaf
Bedshaped - Keane
Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own - U2
Last Thing - Diana Anaid
Reason Why - Rachel Yamagata
Close Your Eyes - Jump Little Children
Rain City - Turin Brakes
don't make fun for the few pop artists that are on there... I dig.
stay tuned for CD reviews on the new Jimmy Eat World "Futures" and Keane... And also a movie review on "Coffee and Cigaretttes" and hopefully by the next time I write I will have seen "The Life Aquatic".
night all. drink sprite, and you'll be ok.
some of the songs on my playlist are old. some are new. but let me say, I have never enjoyed a playlist as much as this one. I'm not entirely sure why, but I absolutely love listening to it.
so, here goes... the window sessions
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight - Postal Service
My December - Linkin Park
Work - Jimmy Eat World
Beautiful Ways - Pat McGee Band
The Boy's Gone - Jason Mraz
In Other Words - Ben Kweller
A Lack of Color - Death Cab for Cutie
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
True - Ryan Cabrera
Grace - Nicole Nordman covering U2
Elevator Beat - Nancy Wilson
Flyin High - Jem
Such Great Heights - Iron & Wine covering Postal Service
Life Can't Grow - Zoppi
Lucky - Seven Mary Three
Fair - Remy Zero
Carry On - Kadence
Streamside - The Album Leaf
Bedshaped - Keane
Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own - U2
Last Thing - Diana Anaid
Reason Why - Rachel Yamagata
Close Your Eyes - Jump Little Children
Rain City - Turin Brakes
don't make fun for the few pop artists that are on there... I dig.
stay tuned for CD reviews on the new Jimmy Eat World "Futures" and Keane... And also a movie review on "Coffee and Cigaretttes" and hopefully by the next time I write I will have seen "The Life Aquatic".
night all. drink sprite, and you'll be ok.
12.26.2004
sight or sound
I had a conversation with a friend of mine a while back. We were discussing which would be worse - to lose your sense of sight or your sense of hearing? We duked it out a while, debating which would be worse, both of creating pretty strong arguments. I believe that I tended to lean towards sight. I would not want to lose my sight. Reason being, I would not get to experience so many things that move me deeply. I would not get to see another sunset. I would not get to see the ocean again. If I am blessed to have kids, I wouldn't get to see what they look like, and I wouldn't be able to see the wonder on their faces. I would never be able to see beautiful artwork again - a beautiful panting, an amazing photograph... I would have such a large void not getting to see these things ever again.
However, as I sat at my parents church on Christmas Eve, I was listening to orchestra music. Now granted, this is not some major symphony or amazing musical ensemble, but they were pretty good. However, as I sat and listened to this music, I had such emotion stirred within me. There is something about music that is so amazing. I have loved it as far back as I can remember, and even now, I crave new music all the time. I was just thinking to myself that my iTunes collection is the most odd mixture of music. I have hip/hop & rap in there, I have hard rock and old school metal in there, I have total pop music, I think Enya is in there somewhere, I have big band music, I have instrumental soundtrack music in there, and I even have weird Viggo Mortensen music that makes absolutely NO sense. But music has always been a huge part of my life. I played piano for 8 years. I currently play the djembe, and like to goof around on guitar. I'm hooked on playing with Garage Band and can play for hours. And there would be no more "Name that Tune" while driving along in the car. What would I do if I couldn't hear? There are many more reasons to think about, but this one hit me kind of hard as I left my conversation with my friend, and as I was sitting listening to all these random instruments the other night, making the most beautiful sounds.
I know, I know... I haven't lost either of these senses yet. But it was definitely something I thought about as I left that conversation. I realize, it's kind of a depressing thought process. However, it makes you think what sorts of things are most important to you too. I have yet to come down on one side or the other, but it definitely made me more grateful for the fact that I have fully functioning senses.
However, as I sat at my parents church on Christmas Eve, I was listening to orchestra music. Now granted, this is not some major symphony or amazing musical ensemble, but they were pretty good. However, as I sat and listened to this music, I had such emotion stirred within me. There is something about music that is so amazing. I have loved it as far back as I can remember, and even now, I crave new music all the time. I was just thinking to myself that my iTunes collection is the most odd mixture of music. I have hip/hop & rap in there, I have hard rock and old school metal in there, I have total pop music, I think Enya is in there somewhere, I have big band music, I have instrumental soundtrack music in there, and I even have weird Viggo Mortensen music that makes absolutely NO sense. But music has always been a huge part of my life. I played piano for 8 years. I currently play the djembe, and like to goof around on guitar. I'm hooked on playing with Garage Band and can play for hours. And there would be no more "Name that Tune" while driving along in the car. What would I do if I couldn't hear? There are many more reasons to think about, but this one hit me kind of hard as I left my conversation with my friend, and as I was sitting listening to all these random instruments the other night, making the most beautiful sounds.
I know, I know... I haven't lost either of these senses yet. But it was definitely something I thought about as I left that conversation. I realize, it's kind of a depressing thought process. However, it makes you think what sorts of things are most important to you too. I have yet to come down on one side or the other, but it definitely made me more grateful for the fact that I have fully functioning senses.
12.21.2004
thoughts of the far off
Today, I sat and listened to a man named Marajin talk about the company I work for... I heard what he was saying, but the whole time I was thinking about "Where is his accent from?" I analyzed all the European countries I could think he MIGHT be from, only to find out he was from one I hadn't thought of - the Netherlands. What are the Netherlands like, anyway? And who would have thought he was from there - I mean, how often do you hear someone do a "Netherlands" accent? Not very recognizable... Anyway, a few weeks ago, my professor was talking about a trip to Spain that he's leading this summer - SPAIN! Could you imagine? In a few weeks he's also taking a group of people to England and Ireland. Just today I learned about a friend of mine from high school who taught in China and is now going BACK to China to teach. The other day I was listening to Sigur Ros - a band from Iceland - wondering what Iceland would be like? There is so much out there... And I've seen so little of it. I have been realizing lately that not only do I own a desire to move out of the house, I also desire to live in a different country. Call it a huge desire to travel, but I can't stand the fact that there is so much of the world to see, and I've only seen a mere fraction of it. And I don't want to just see it for a week. Or two weeks. Part of me had a moment of panic... "God, does this mean I need to become a missionary?" I'm not sure though that if that WERE the case that I'd be a missionary in the traditional sense. Who's to say I couldn't move to New Zealand, pursue some sort of "career" (whatever that may be), get to know people and start a house church that way. Or move to Ireland (ha, that'd be a challenge) or Thailand. Who knows... I don't even have a specific place in mind. I've just had my mind in places that are not here. I'm not even sure where God would lead me. But it's kind of cool to think that once I graduate from school, anything is fair game... Cool thought. Who knows. Maybe one year from today, from this exact post, I'll be telling you I'm moving to Austrailia. Or Iceland. Or Beliz. Good to think about. Fun times.
12.04.2004
nes quest
ok folks.
I'm on a quest. An NES quest. What exactly is NES? Nintendo Entertainment System. Yes, that's right. Nintendo. I have had a few conversations with people recently about Nintendo, and I've realized as of late how unbelievably fun it would be to have one. So I'm on a quest. I bid on one on Ebay - it even had 2 of the three games I wanted! I'm looking to own Mario 3, Castlevania, and Maniac Mansion. But I was outbid. I have a bid in on another one, so we'll see what happens.
So keep your eyes and ears open kiddies, and let me know if you know anything, or have any good NES connectiosn.
I'm on a quest. An NES quest. What exactly is NES? Nintendo Entertainment System. Yes, that's right. Nintendo. I have had a few conversations with people recently about Nintendo, and I've realized as of late how unbelievably fun it would be to have one. So I'm on a quest. I bid on one on Ebay - it even had 2 of the three games I wanted! I'm looking to own Mario 3, Castlevania, and Maniac Mansion. But I was outbid. I have a bid in on another one, so we'll see what happens.
So keep your eyes and ears open kiddies, and let me know if you know anything, or have any good NES connectiosn.
11.30.2004
links
ok, so I'm not smart enough to know how to post links in the body of my entry, so you'll have to bear with me and go old school - you'll have to copy and paste these links into your URL window. Sorry gang... I know, I know... All this technology at our fingertips, and Tory can't figure out how to work links... DEAL WITH IT! hehehe... Just kidding.
But there are a few links I think you should check out. Some are serious, some are just down right fun! Hehehe...
The first one I'd like to draw your attention to is on the Moby website. It is here:
http://www.moby-online.com/index2.html
This is Moby's online journal. He has a really interesting post on November 5th - entitled "Christian Values". It's interesting because it's things that AS a Christian, I thought about during the voting season. Do I agree with him? Not entirely. But it's definitely good to hear how a non-christian views Christ and his ministry, without necessarily following it. Definitely an
interesting read... Check it out. (Chris, I'm sure you'll have a field day with it!)
P.S. on Moby - he has a new CD coming out entitled "Hotel". My brother gave me the heads up on that one, which is how I found the online journal entry above.
Strindberg & Helium... My friend Aaron (or one of his friends) posted this on their website. I've shown a couple of it to you already, but it's so lame, it's funny. I crack up at it every time I watch it. And I can't help but want to do the Helium voice every so often. They are just a few crazy cartoons... Check it out:
http://www.strindbergandhelium.com
I'm not going to really say anything about the next one. I got it off the same site as the Strindberg & Helium (c2ak providing left and right!) But it's a really fun commerical!
http://uk.download.yahoo.com/ne/fu/oa/eurcncs185030.mpg
And also, if you haven't checked out U2's new CD - go to www.u2.com, or http://u2m.u2exit.com (an unofficial U2 site I believe) and check out the CD, video clips, and sound bites... Good U2 stuff EVERYWHERE! YAY!
Ok, that's all for now. Maybe I'll post something more deep and thought provoking later...Hehehe...
But there are a few links I think you should check out. Some are serious, some are just down right fun! Hehehe...
The first one I'd like to draw your attention to is on the Moby website. It is here:
http://www.moby-online.com/index2.html
This is Moby's online journal. He has a really interesting post on November 5th - entitled "Christian Values". It's interesting because it's things that AS a Christian, I thought about during the voting season. Do I agree with him? Not entirely. But it's definitely good to hear how a non-christian views Christ and his ministry, without necessarily following it. Definitely an
interesting read... Check it out. (Chris, I'm sure you'll have a field day with it!)
P.S. on Moby - he has a new CD coming out entitled "Hotel". My brother gave me the heads up on that one, which is how I found the online journal entry above.
Strindberg & Helium... My friend Aaron (or one of his friends) posted this on their website. I've shown a couple of it to you already, but it's so lame, it's funny. I crack up at it every time I watch it. And I can't help but want to do the Helium voice every so often. They are just a few crazy cartoons... Check it out:
http://www.strindbergandhelium.com
I'm not going to really say anything about the next one. I got it off the same site as the Strindberg & Helium (c2ak providing left and right!) But it's a really fun commerical!
http://uk.download.yahoo.com/ne/fu/oa/eurcncs185030.mpg
And also, if you haven't checked out U2's new CD - go to www.u2.com, or http://u2m.u2exit.com (an unofficial U2 site I believe) and check out the CD, video clips, and sound bites... Good U2 stuff EVERYWHERE! YAY!
Ok, that's all for now. Maybe I'll post something more deep and thought provoking later...Hehehe...
11.27.2004
how to dismantle and other things
Happy post Thanksgiving one and all...
I hope that turkey day found you all full and thankful.
I thought I'd post a few things... Not a whole lot rattling around the old brain today, but just a few things to share. First of all, I need to put in another shameless plug for the U2 album "How To Dismantle The Atomic Bomb". It is such a great album. Whether you're a life long fan of U2, have just gotten into them recently, or had given up on them after Zooropa, check this album out. It's great! You can even "preview" all of the songs on iTunes, and I believe they have it streaming at U2.com.
"The Polar Express" - such a great flick. I know I touched on it briefly in an earlier post, but seriously peeps, go see it. I know, I know, the animation looks a little creepy. It really does at times. But it's SO much fun, and it'll totally put you in the Christmas spirit. It's so great. Tom Hanks does an excellent job providing the voice, as well as the facial expressions for the multitude of characters he plays. I've also heard they're playing it at Navy Pier in 3-D. It's supposed to be freakin' amazing. So if anything - go see it there!
I still have yet to see the Incredibles... Saddness.
Christmas in the Ward is this Friday night - EXCITEMENT EXCITEMENT!
I was thinking about how much I HAVEN'T read. I am looking at a huge bookshelf in my room of a whole mess of books I haven't read, and thinking how sad that is. All that information at my figertips, and there it sits collecting dust. So here's my new plan. I want to read one book a month. I know, I know - some of you can do a book in a day. I'm a slow reader, so cut me some slack. A book a month is HUGE for me. I hardly ever read books for fun anymore. But now is my chance. I believe I'm going to try to make this my new goal. I'm not sure what book to start with though - I have so many. Ok my friends, I believe I'm going to start with The Ragamuffin Gospel. I started it a while back, and never finished it. That, or "The Magicians Nephew" by C.S. Lewis. So, check in with me in a month and see if I've finished. Should be sometime right around Christmas I'm thinking. Hopefully I can stick with it.
Ok one and all... Off to do some fun "Saturday" type things - you know, like cleaning, homework, napping... All the important stuff! I'll write more in the coming days, but in the mean time, have a blessed Saturday afternoon!
I hope that turkey day found you all full and thankful.
I thought I'd post a few things... Not a whole lot rattling around the old brain today, but just a few things to share. First of all, I need to put in another shameless plug for the U2 album "How To Dismantle The Atomic Bomb". It is such a great album. Whether you're a life long fan of U2, have just gotten into them recently, or had given up on them after Zooropa, check this album out. It's great! You can even "preview" all of the songs on iTunes, and I believe they have it streaming at U2.com.
"The Polar Express" - such a great flick. I know I touched on it briefly in an earlier post, but seriously peeps, go see it. I know, I know, the animation looks a little creepy. It really does at times. But it's SO much fun, and it'll totally put you in the Christmas spirit. It's so great. Tom Hanks does an excellent job providing the voice, as well as the facial expressions for the multitude of characters he plays. I've also heard they're playing it at Navy Pier in 3-D. It's supposed to be freakin' amazing. So if anything - go see it there!
I still have yet to see the Incredibles... Saddness.
Christmas in the Ward is this Friday night - EXCITEMENT EXCITEMENT!
I was thinking about how much I HAVEN'T read. I am looking at a huge bookshelf in my room of a whole mess of books I haven't read, and thinking how sad that is. All that information at my figertips, and there it sits collecting dust. So here's my new plan. I want to read one book a month. I know, I know - some of you can do a book in a day. I'm a slow reader, so cut me some slack. A book a month is HUGE for me. I hardly ever read books for fun anymore. But now is my chance. I believe I'm going to try to make this my new goal. I'm not sure what book to start with though - I have so many. Ok my friends, I believe I'm going to start with The Ragamuffin Gospel. I started it a while back, and never finished it. That, or "The Magicians Nephew" by C.S. Lewis. So, check in with me in a month and see if I've finished. Should be sometime right around Christmas I'm thinking. Hopefully I can stick with it.
Ok one and all... Off to do some fun "Saturday" type things - you know, like cleaning, homework, napping... All the important stuff! I'll write more in the coming days, but in the mean time, have a blessed Saturday afternoon!
11.22.2004
take two
ok, let's hope this one is better...
there's no real way to check it unless I take it myself
maybe I'll do that. but check it out, and take my quiz!
there's no real way to check it unless I take it myself
maybe I'll do that. but check it out, and take my quiz!
quiz time!
My friend Chris created a quiz about himself, and had me take it...
So I created one of my own! Go check it out... Some of the questions are kind of fun!
*UPDATE ON QUIZ*
Sorry to the two people who took it. I do INDEED have one sibling. I don't know how I marked the wrong answer! (Sorry Kelly - I love you!) So, I will be creating a new quiz a little later today - one with all correct answers. However, now I have to think of new questions! Sorry to Katy & Chris who already took it... but now you can take a new one! :)
If you still want to take the old one though, feel free. The title of my post is the link. (Roll your mouse over the title and click it).
So I created one of my own! Go check it out... Some of the questions are kind of fun!
*UPDATE ON QUIZ*
Sorry to the two people who took it. I do INDEED have one sibling. I don't know how I marked the wrong answer! (Sorry Kelly - I love you!) So, I will be creating a new quiz a little later today - one with all correct answers. However, now I have to think of new questions! Sorry to Katy & Chris who already took it... but now you can take a new one! :)
If you still want to take the old one though, feel free. The title of my post is the link. (Roll your mouse over the title and click it).
11.21.2004
am i singing?
Though my young adult gathering tonight ended with the question "What song are you singing?" the question posed in the title of this entry was the one that stuck out in my head. I left the night asking myself not "What song am I singing?" but more basically, "Am I singing?"
The answer I came to was no. I'm not singing. Sure, I have random songs stuck in my head every now and then. I couldn't get "Fall to Pieces" by Velvet Revolver out of my head for the LONGEST time. But this is NOT what I'm referring to. We talked about how we were created to sing God's song... My question is am I singing a song at all? And I don't think that I am. I feel as though it's just noise - a clanging symbol. Typically I leave those kinds of messages feeling like crap...I've failed in one more area - what next? That is my typcial thought. However, this concept of singing "God's Song" resonated with me, and got me really excited. It made me really excited to find it! I know, I know... If I have a personal relationship with God, I should know the song already, right? Well, I'm not sure it's that easy, my friends... I somehow don't think there's just ONE song. I think we can have different songs for different stages in our lives. However, I know that there is one theme to all the songs, and that is that God TOTALLY deserves the glory, and deserves to be proclaimed. Now, I just gotta find a good tune! :)
In the mean time, I leave you with some lyrics from Jeremy Camp's new CD. Have you picked up on my lyric kick lately? Well, anyway...Check it out. It's so good. So simple, so profound.
You wanna be real, you wanna be emptied inside,
You wanna be someone, laying down your pride,
You wanna be someone someday,
Lay it all down before the King
You wanna be whole, you wanna have purpose inside
You wanna have virtue, to purify your mind
You wanna be set free today
Lay it all down before the King
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by You
You wanna be real, you want to be emptied inside
And I know my heart is to feel You near
And I know my life is to do Your will
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by You
The answer I came to was no. I'm not singing. Sure, I have random songs stuck in my head every now and then. I couldn't get "Fall to Pieces" by Velvet Revolver out of my head for the LONGEST time. But this is NOT what I'm referring to. We talked about how we were created to sing God's song... My question is am I singing a song at all? And I don't think that I am. I feel as though it's just noise - a clanging symbol. Typically I leave those kinds of messages feeling like crap...I've failed in one more area - what next? That is my typcial thought. However, this concept of singing "God's Song" resonated with me, and got me really excited. It made me really excited to find it! I know, I know... If I have a personal relationship with God, I should know the song already, right? Well, I'm not sure it's that easy, my friends... I somehow don't think there's just ONE song. I think we can have different songs for different stages in our lives. However, I know that there is one theme to all the songs, and that is that God TOTALLY deserves the glory, and deserves to be proclaimed. Now, I just gotta find a good tune! :)
In the mean time, I leave you with some lyrics from Jeremy Camp's new CD. Have you picked up on my lyric kick lately? Well, anyway...Check it out. It's so good. So simple, so profound.
You wanna be real, you wanna be emptied inside,
You wanna be someone, laying down your pride,
You wanna be someone someday,
Lay it all down before the King
You wanna be whole, you wanna have purpose inside
You wanna have virtue, to purify your mind
You wanna be set free today
Lay it all down before the King
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by You
You wanna be real, you want to be emptied inside
And I know my heart is to feel You near
And I know my life is to do Your will
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by You
11.20.2004
miracle drug
"I wanna trip inside your head
Spend the day there
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might say
I wanna hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all
I want to see your thoughts take shape and
Walk right out"
These are some of the lyrics from the song "Miracle Drug" off the new U2 album "How To Dismantle the Atomic Bomb" due out on Tuesday (go buy it!). This song is absolutely beautiful. I love it. And these songs... I can't tell you how much this song is mine right now...I love it.
Spend the day there
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might say
I wanna hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all
I want to see your thoughts take shape and
Walk right out"
These are some of the lyrics from the song "Miracle Drug" off the new U2 album "How To Dismantle the Atomic Bomb" due out on Tuesday (go buy it!). This song is absolutely beautiful. I love it. And these songs... I can't tell you how much this song is mine right now...I love it.
christmas in the ward
ok one and all...my favorite time of the year is quickly approaching.
I just went to see Polar Expedition last night. I may have to incorporate a third entry for the day to give you my review, but we'll see. Anyway, watching Polar Express totally put in my the mood for Christmas. I absolutely love this time of year. I know that as a Christian, it is supposed to be all about Jesus' birth. And don't get me wrong - the true meaning of Christmas is indeed so close and dear to my heart. I don't want to discount that. But I do love the commercial version of Christmas as well. I love the lights, the decorations, the music... Call me a sucker for "romantic settings" but shoo dang - it is indeed! And it's so beautiful. I love to walk down the streets at night - especially in the city - all the trees lit up and decorated, with carollers strolling about, handing out warm cups of cider, and fireworks going off in the back ground...
Fireworks?
YUP! That's what I said... HOW UNBELIEVABLY AMAZING that my two favorite times of year (Christmas and Fourth of July) will be combined together in one event this year. I absolutely adore fireworks, and this year at Christmas in the Ward (that would be Milwaukee's Historic Third Ward - not the hospital ward you all probably think I should belong to at this point) is going to have a fireworks display. ROCK THE CASBAH! I'm so excited!
So, for those of you my fellow readers (I think that may amount to three of you), I would like to say you're more than welcome to join the Christmas fun! Even if you're not from around here... There is a group from Grace Church in Racine that will be coming up, and I think we're going to get a group of young adults from the Gathering at Ridgewood and it should be loads of fun! It's Friday, December 3rd (shoo, I'll be missing a night of Res Fest - I still hope I can go on Saturday!) and it starts at 5pm. All the art galleries will be open, there will be a tree lighting ceremony, fireworks, carriage rides (I've ALWAYS wanted to go on one!) carolling, bakes sales, all sorts of goodies...
If you are interested, let me know... Otherwise, check out the link that is attached to the title of this entry.
Should be a good time.
I LOVE CHRISTMAS!
I just went to see Polar Expedition last night. I may have to incorporate a third entry for the day to give you my review, but we'll see. Anyway, watching Polar Express totally put in my the mood for Christmas. I absolutely love this time of year. I know that as a Christian, it is supposed to be all about Jesus' birth. And don't get me wrong - the true meaning of Christmas is indeed so close and dear to my heart. I don't want to discount that. But I do love the commercial version of Christmas as well. I love the lights, the decorations, the music... Call me a sucker for "romantic settings" but shoo dang - it is indeed! And it's so beautiful. I love to walk down the streets at night - especially in the city - all the trees lit up and decorated, with carollers strolling about, handing out warm cups of cider, and fireworks going off in the back ground...
Fireworks?
YUP! That's what I said... HOW UNBELIEVABLY AMAZING that my two favorite times of year (Christmas and Fourth of July) will be combined together in one event this year. I absolutely adore fireworks, and this year at Christmas in the Ward (that would be Milwaukee's Historic Third Ward - not the hospital ward you all probably think I should belong to at this point) is going to have a fireworks display. ROCK THE CASBAH! I'm so excited!
So, for those of you my fellow readers (I think that may amount to three of you), I would like to say you're more than welcome to join the Christmas fun! Even if you're not from around here... There is a group from Grace Church in Racine that will be coming up, and I think we're going to get a group of young adults from the Gathering at Ridgewood and it should be loads of fun! It's Friday, December 3rd (shoo, I'll be missing a night of Res Fest - I still hope I can go on Saturday!) and it starts at 5pm. All the art galleries will be open, there will be a tree lighting ceremony, fireworks, carriage rides (I've ALWAYS wanted to go on one!) carolling, bakes sales, all sorts of goodies...
If you are interested, let me know... Otherwise, check out the link that is attached to the title of this entry.
Should be a good time.
I LOVE CHRISTMAS!
fake plastic trees
The green plastic watering can
For a fake Chinese rubber plant
In fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the 80's
But gravity always wins
It wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears...
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I could just turn and run
And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out
And if I could be, who you wanted
If I could be, who you wanted
All the time
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I found part of this song written in my journal a while back, and I forgot how much I absolutely love this song. The song is such a great song sonically and Thom Yorke has such a haunting voice. But the lyrics are great as well...
The lyrics that I have written in my journal are "She looks like the real thing, she tastes like the real thing...my fake plastic love". I wrote these down at time when I was struggling with self worth/image. And I know this may sound weird, but this song was so great to listen to at that point in time... I mean, it's talking about all these things (which may outwardly be appealing - "used to do surgery, for girls in the 80s") as being fake and plastic, and yet they're not fulfilling ("but gravity always wins")... In fact, just the opposite. "It wears me out..." While I have yet to master this whole self worth thing, and I continue to struggle with it, it's encouraging to know that who I am is better than who anyone else would want me to be, you know? So I suppose this is a strange entry... I have just been in too many conversations with people lately and going through my own struggles with this issue as of late. Why is it that "fake plastic" is so much more appealing? Not only to be, but also to acquire? I mean, this trickles down into relationships, what we own (or want to own) what we expect, and friendships even... I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day about surface level relationships, and how I struggle with them because they're so unnatural - fake & plastic. Why do we take part in this, when like as the song says, it wears us out. I personally think that if we were all a little more open and honest with one another, it may not be so wearisome. You wouldn't have to put forth all the effort to uphold the facade. You wouldn't have to spend all of your energy on trying to HAVE energy. I recognize the fact that this is so much easier said than done... I'm no where NEAR mastering this concept. But I have been challenged lately to let the people around me know what is going on in my head and my heart, and being ok with that.
Let me know if any of you have any tricks for getting the hang of this!
Oh, and I would just like to say thanks to Sarah M. for getting my brain on this kick - a girl who strives to be open and honest with most everyone she knows and meets. Thanks girl - you rock!
For a fake Chinese rubber plant
In fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the 80's
But gravity always wins
It wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears...
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I could just turn and run
And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out
And if I could be, who you wanted
If I could be, who you wanted
All the time
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
I found part of this song written in my journal a while back, and I forgot how much I absolutely love this song. The song is such a great song sonically and Thom Yorke has such a haunting voice. But the lyrics are great as well...
The lyrics that I have written in my journal are "She looks like the real thing, she tastes like the real thing...my fake plastic love". I wrote these down at time when I was struggling with self worth/image. And I know this may sound weird, but this song was so great to listen to at that point in time... I mean, it's talking about all these things (which may outwardly be appealing - "used to do surgery, for girls in the 80s") as being fake and plastic, and yet they're not fulfilling ("but gravity always wins")... In fact, just the opposite. "It wears me out..." While I have yet to master this whole self worth thing, and I continue to struggle with it, it's encouraging to know that who I am is better than who anyone else would want me to be, you know? So I suppose this is a strange entry... I have just been in too many conversations with people lately and going through my own struggles with this issue as of late. Why is it that "fake plastic" is so much more appealing? Not only to be, but also to acquire? I mean, this trickles down into relationships, what we own (or want to own) what we expect, and friendships even... I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day about surface level relationships, and how I struggle with them because they're so unnatural - fake & plastic. Why do we take part in this, when like as the song says, it wears us out. I personally think that if we were all a little more open and honest with one another, it may not be so wearisome. You wouldn't have to put forth all the effort to uphold the facade. You wouldn't have to spend all of your energy on trying to HAVE energy. I recognize the fact that this is so much easier said than done... I'm no where NEAR mastering this concept. But I have been challenged lately to let the people around me know what is going on in my head and my heart, and being ok with that.
Let me know if any of you have any tricks for getting the hang of this!
Oh, and I would just like to say thanks to Sarah M. for getting my brain on this kick - a girl who strives to be open and honest with most everyone she knows and meets. Thanks girl - you rock!
11.15.2004
life in a fishbowl
current song: "Video" - Ben Folds Five
Life in a fishbowl. It was the thought that came to me as I sat here considering the events of the past week, and all of the things that are coming up. Life in a fishbowl, you ask? I'll explain...
There are two explanations really...Here's the first.
I had good friend ask my my thoughts on free will/destiny/fate - all that good stuff. They were wondering what my feeling were on how much God actually orchestrates in our lives, or what is really left up to us to decide. My friend Ben once told me a great explanation of his thoughts on this, and I would say that I tend to agree with it. I actually think it was his dad's analogy - props to Pastor Henry. But here's where the "life in fishbowl" thing comes in. We're in the world - a fishbowl if you will. We can swim wherever we want within the fishbowl. We can swim up towards the top of the bowl making little bubbles rise to the top, down towards the bottom of the bowl, scraping our little bellies on the gravel below, we can swim through the little rock tunnels, hide behind the fake plastic trees (ha! Radiohead reference!), or even chill out with the little scuba diver who's made a home in our fishbowl. We have plenty of options on where to swim - they almost seem endless. However, we ARE still within the confines of the fishbowl - we are still mortal, we can still die, and we do have the ability to create quite a bit of destruction. We are surrounded by a glass bowl which represents our limitations. We also have an owner...No fish lives in a fishbowl & survives with someone taking care of them. That "owner" may provide nourishment for the fish, it may clean out the tank everynow and then, or rearrange the scuba man from one side to the other. The "owner" may do it, and the fish is totally oblivious to it. Other times, it takes our complete removal from the fishbowl to take care of the fish. Again, this is pretty abstract, but it's helped me sort of gain handles on God's role regarding free will/fate type issues.
current song: "Different Situation" - Athaneum
The other idea I had behind "life in a fishbowl" isn't as abstract or deep. It was moreso like I felt like I was hitting the glass tank a lot lately. Have you ever felt that way? I seriously feel like a dunce lately...I feel like I'm swimming full force at the glass, and all looks clear - I'm not even AWARE the glass exists. So full force I head towards it and WHAP - smack into the glass. Have you ever seen a fish do that? It's kinda funny...I always snicker when I see it. But at the same time, the fish is somewhat dazed and confused for the moment. He was sure he had more clearance...only to be smacked in the face! I gotta stop swimming into the glass...
ending song "I Hope I Just Didn't Give Away The Ending" - New Radicals
Life in a fishbowl...A comforting, yet awakening thought...Maybe I'll just have to hang out with the scuba man for a while.
Goodnight, one and all.
Life in a fishbowl. It was the thought that came to me as I sat here considering the events of the past week, and all of the things that are coming up. Life in a fishbowl, you ask? I'll explain...
There are two explanations really...Here's the first.
I had good friend ask my my thoughts on free will/destiny/fate - all that good stuff. They were wondering what my feeling were on how much God actually orchestrates in our lives, or what is really left up to us to decide. My friend Ben once told me a great explanation of his thoughts on this, and I would say that I tend to agree with it. I actually think it was his dad's analogy - props to Pastor Henry. But here's where the "life in fishbowl" thing comes in. We're in the world - a fishbowl if you will. We can swim wherever we want within the fishbowl. We can swim up towards the top of the bowl making little bubbles rise to the top, down towards the bottom of the bowl, scraping our little bellies on the gravel below, we can swim through the little rock tunnels, hide behind the fake plastic trees (ha! Radiohead reference!), or even chill out with the little scuba diver who's made a home in our fishbowl. We have plenty of options on where to swim - they almost seem endless. However, we ARE still within the confines of the fishbowl - we are still mortal, we can still die, and we do have the ability to create quite a bit of destruction. We are surrounded by a glass bowl which represents our limitations. We also have an owner...No fish lives in a fishbowl & survives with someone taking care of them. That "owner" may provide nourishment for the fish, it may clean out the tank everynow and then, or rearrange the scuba man from one side to the other. The "owner" may do it, and the fish is totally oblivious to it. Other times, it takes our complete removal from the fishbowl to take care of the fish. Again, this is pretty abstract, but it's helped me sort of gain handles on God's role regarding free will/fate type issues.
current song: "Different Situation" - Athaneum
The other idea I had behind "life in a fishbowl" isn't as abstract or deep. It was moreso like I felt like I was hitting the glass tank a lot lately. Have you ever felt that way? I seriously feel like a dunce lately...I feel like I'm swimming full force at the glass, and all looks clear - I'm not even AWARE the glass exists. So full force I head towards it and WHAP - smack into the glass. Have you ever seen a fish do that? It's kinda funny...I always snicker when I see it. But at the same time, the fish is somewhat dazed and confused for the moment. He was sure he had more clearance...only to be smacked in the face! I gotta stop swimming into the glass...
ending song "I Hope I Just Didn't Give Away The Ending" - New Radicals
Life in a fishbowl...A comforting, yet awakening thought...Maybe I'll just have to hang out with the scuba man for a while.
Goodnight, one and all.
11.06.2004
michelle
I went to a screening the other night at the Oriental Theater. It was for an HBO documentary called "Last Letters Home". The short film was about 8 different fallen soldiers in Iraq - their story, their families, and their last letters home. As I sat their watching the first soldier they highlighted, all these feelings from last April came rushing back. Michelle Witmer, the younger sister of Rachel Witmer (who has been a good friend of mine since we were 13), was shot while doing a security round in Iraq last spring. She was 20. And this movie was highlighting her, a fallen soldier, who died serving her country.
Back in April, it all seemed so surreal. I remember sitting across the table from Rachel at a restuarant telling her that I remember when I was little thinking "We'll never have to deal with war." Then the Gulf War came. I don't remember having strong feelings about it, but I think that was due to the fact that I was pretty young, and didn't know anyone personally involved. But then, this war came along. Rachel was enlisted as a reservist. So were her two younger twin sisters Charity and Michelle. Rachel and Michelle were the first to be deployed, and then Charity. All three were home at Christmas on a short leave. I can remember running into Michelle at Starbucks, throwing my arms around her and telling her how good it was to see her and have her home for a little bit. Two weeks later, they were to go back to Iraq. I had no idea, that Christmas, was the last time I would ever talk to Michelle.
Throughout the spring and summer, I had tried to process what had happened. The first few weeks were tough, and I found myself being VERY close to the Witmers, and wanting to be around them. As time went by, it got harder to deal with, and I found myself retreating - which I'm so sad happened. That's when they needed people the most. As the summer continued on, and the election got closer and closer, more and more talk brewed about regarding the war. People hated Bush because of it - cursing him for sending our troops in there. What good does that do? They would have cursed him either way...
As I entered the UWM campus this fall, "Vote for Nader" was everywhere from day one, all about the anti-war movement. I began to think long and hard about the war. How did I feel about it? Did I agree with it? Did I think Bush was to blame? And the other night, watching this movie where they walked through the lives of these 8 men and women, I realized something. I never said thank you...I know that I won't get to say it to Michelle in person, nor will I get to say it really any other soldiers, but honestly - whether you're for or against the war, we are seriously in such debt to these men and women who have served their country in order to help fight for our freedom. There are a lot of people out there who say this war is not about our freedom. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. All I know is that there are families who are now fatherless, motherless, sisterless, brotherless, etc because they were selfless enough to say, "There is a cause that I am needed for that is beyond me and is for the good of my people." They stepped out - whether they agreed with it or not - and offered to lay down their life so that we could live more comfortably. And for that, I cannot even begin to express my gratitude.
As I left the Oriental Theater, I had a huge amount of saddness in my heart. MIchelle was gone at the age of 20, when she could have had so much more to live. But then, I thought about Michelle. I thought about how she wanted nothing more than to make a difference. She wanted to serve people and impact their lives, and that's exactly what she did - she died doing it. It made me smile to think about the fact that she wouldn't want us to feel sorry for her, or feel sorrow. But it also made me think, "What in my life am I pursuing or doing that I would be proud to die doing..." It was definitely a question that I pondered all night, and have yet to agree on an answer.
I know this is a little heavy, and I know it's a little bit of a view into my thoughts...but I really wanted to write about it. I haven't written much anywhere about my feelings/thoughts on Michelle, war, and everything that's been going on. To be honest, I had stuffed it down pretty deep because it was pretty crazy to think about. But I cannot tell you how grateful I am for the sacrifice Michelle and the Witmer family made, and I hope I never forget it.
Thank you Michelle...
Back in April, it all seemed so surreal. I remember sitting across the table from Rachel at a restuarant telling her that I remember when I was little thinking "We'll never have to deal with war." Then the Gulf War came. I don't remember having strong feelings about it, but I think that was due to the fact that I was pretty young, and didn't know anyone personally involved. But then, this war came along. Rachel was enlisted as a reservist. So were her two younger twin sisters Charity and Michelle. Rachel and Michelle were the first to be deployed, and then Charity. All three were home at Christmas on a short leave. I can remember running into Michelle at Starbucks, throwing my arms around her and telling her how good it was to see her and have her home for a little bit. Two weeks later, they were to go back to Iraq. I had no idea, that Christmas, was the last time I would ever talk to Michelle.
Throughout the spring and summer, I had tried to process what had happened. The first few weeks were tough, and I found myself being VERY close to the Witmers, and wanting to be around them. As time went by, it got harder to deal with, and I found myself retreating - which I'm so sad happened. That's when they needed people the most. As the summer continued on, and the election got closer and closer, more and more talk brewed about regarding the war. People hated Bush because of it - cursing him for sending our troops in there. What good does that do? They would have cursed him either way...
As I entered the UWM campus this fall, "Vote for Nader" was everywhere from day one, all about the anti-war movement. I began to think long and hard about the war. How did I feel about it? Did I agree with it? Did I think Bush was to blame? And the other night, watching this movie where they walked through the lives of these 8 men and women, I realized something. I never said thank you...I know that I won't get to say it to Michelle in person, nor will I get to say it really any other soldiers, but honestly - whether you're for or against the war, we are seriously in such debt to these men and women who have served their country in order to help fight for our freedom. There are a lot of people out there who say this war is not about our freedom. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. All I know is that there are families who are now fatherless, motherless, sisterless, brotherless, etc because they were selfless enough to say, "There is a cause that I am needed for that is beyond me and is for the good of my people." They stepped out - whether they agreed with it or not - and offered to lay down their life so that we could live more comfortably. And for that, I cannot even begin to express my gratitude.
As I left the Oriental Theater, I had a huge amount of saddness in my heart. MIchelle was gone at the age of 20, when she could have had so much more to live. But then, I thought about Michelle. I thought about how she wanted nothing more than to make a difference. She wanted to serve people and impact their lives, and that's exactly what she did - she died doing it. It made me smile to think about the fact that she wouldn't want us to feel sorry for her, or feel sorrow. But it also made me think, "What in my life am I pursuing or doing that I would be proud to die doing..." It was definitely a question that I pondered all night, and have yet to agree on an answer.
I know this is a little heavy, and I know it's a little bit of a view into my thoughts...but I really wanted to write about it. I haven't written much anywhere about my feelings/thoughts on Michelle, war, and everything that's been going on. To be honest, I had stuffed it down pretty deep because it was pretty crazy to think about. But I cannot tell you how grateful I am for the sacrifice Michelle and the Witmer family made, and I hope I never forget it.
Thank you Michelle...
elsewhere
I feel as though you must check this out. I was introduced to Kollaboration IV this summer at SEMP by my friend Aaron, and he just found another one by the same guy. This dude, David Elsewhere, is the most insane dancer I have ever seen. It's as if he has no bones or something...the dude can move like none else. If you roll over the title of this post, it's hyperlinked to Kollaboration IV. I'll get the link to the other one, and post it shortly...but for now check this one out! It's CRAZY!
Thanks to Aaron for the info/link on his website to David Elsewhere's second video...If you want to check out Aaron's website, he and his buddies post some cool links to different graphic design/photography sites, as well as other random tidbits and ramblings. It's fun... The address is www.c2ak.com
Thanks to Aaron for the info/link on his website to David Elsewhere's second video...If you want to check out Aaron's website, he and his buddies post some cool links to different graphic design/photography sites, as well as other random tidbits and ramblings. It's fun... The address is www.c2ak.com
11.01.2004
sigur ros & 10th grade poetry
Today was a Sigur Ros day...Just thought I'd let you know in case you didn't get the memo. Sigur Ros is an amazing, very mellow Icelandic band. If you've seen Vanilla Sky, some of their music is in that. I was driving home from school, a drown rat - cold and wet from having walked around campus in the rain, and I put Sigur Ros on my iPod and it just, well, fit. It was great. So I deemed today Sigur Ros day.
I also came across this poem that I wrote in 10th grade. It's obvious that I wrote in 10th grade (just sounds like a youngin' wrote it - I was like 15 I think), but I'm not sure I've written anything better since. That's kind of sad. And that isn't to say that it's "good", but it was the most honest thing I wrote at the time. And I thought that with the election being tomorrow, and everyone forcing their opinions on each other, it was kind of interesting that I came across it. So here goes:
The World Through His Window
And outsider,
One accused of accomplishing nothing, being nothing
Cast doubt on this so-called friend
Known to be a cruel and malevolent world
A place never known for peace
But rather prejudice and hate.
He knew it, lived it, dealt with it every day.
It was because God decided to use a different crayon
Than He had used on those around him
So now, the outsider used a different crayon,
One that showed his view of the world
And how he pictured himself.
He drew,
Drew the world the way it was meant to look
And he showed his picture.
The picture became the truth, it told the truth
But no one cared.
They kept drawing the world the way they wanted it to look
They dared not face reality
But the outsider drew,
Hoping they might one day see
The world through his window.
I also came across this poem that I wrote in 10th grade. It's obvious that I wrote in 10th grade (just sounds like a youngin' wrote it - I was like 15 I think), but I'm not sure I've written anything better since. That's kind of sad. And that isn't to say that it's "good", but it was the most honest thing I wrote at the time. And I thought that with the election being tomorrow, and everyone forcing their opinions on each other, it was kind of interesting that I came across it. So here goes:
The World Through His Window
And outsider,
One accused of accomplishing nothing, being nothing
Cast doubt on this so-called friend
Known to be a cruel and malevolent world
A place never known for peace
But rather prejudice and hate.
He knew it, lived it, dealt with it every day.
It was because God decided to use a different crayon
Than He had used on those around him
So now, the outsider used a different crayon,
One that showed his view of the world
And how he pictured himself.
He drew,
Drew the world the way it was meant to look
And he showed his picture.
The picture became the truth, it told the truth
But no one cared.
They kept drawing the world the way they wanted it to look
They dared not face reality
But the outsider drew,
Hoping they might one day see
The world through his window.
10.30.2004
jones, bell & mclaren
I was reading the most recent post on Tony Jones website just the other day. Tony Jones is the author of a book called "Postmodern Youth Ministry" (as well as other books I'm sure) and has an involvement with the Emergent church group. In his most recent post, he was talking about an article written by a guy named Andy Crouch that was recently in Christianity Today about Mars Hill, Rob Bell, & Brian McLaren. I was reading all the responses and thoughts on the Crouch article, and found the overwhelming amount of frustration and quick defenses unreal! So, I decided to read the article. It was kind of interesting. If you'd like to read the article, you can click on the title of this post, and it'll take you to it. You can then read all the responses on Tony's blog if you so choose...It's kind of interesting, and I wished I had gotten in on the action earlier.
I had a conversation with a friend of mine a couple days ago about my frustration with the whole "modern" vs "postmodern". Why do there have to be titles? Can't we just say, "We're connecting with God in a new way." and leave it at that? I don't know. I think that there are definitely some different ways that this upcoming generation seems to want to worship and connect with God. I think some of those ways may go against what we would consider to be fundamental or modern. However, to give it a new category, a new title, and create a new form of division is unneccesssary. I'd like to believe that a so-called modern and so-called postmodern could co-exist in the same place. It looks to me that creating these new lines, new categories of postmodern vs. modern is only creating division, instead of inviting one another to learn and journey together. I struggle with creating this new denomination (isn't that, in essence, what we're doing) and I hope that it doesn't cause a division like the charasmatics from the conservatives, the armenians from the calvanists, the whatevers from the whatevers...I feel like it's a slippery slope, and sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one that feels that way. I definitely identify with a lot of the "postmodern ways", but that doesn't mean I consider myself postmodern. I don't think I'll ever be fully postmodern, having grown up in a modern society. So why can I not embrace new ways as an old way person, and not be crucified or recategorized for it?
Just some light thoughts for a Saturday afternoon...hehehe...
If you want to check out Tony Jone's website, you can check it out here:
http://theoblogy.blogspot.com
I had a conversation with a friend of mine a couple days ago about my frustration with the whole "modern" vs "postmodern". Why do there have to be titles? Can't we just say, "We're connecting with God in a new way." and leave it at that? I don't know. I think that there are definitely some different ways that this upcoming generation seems to want to worship and connect with God. I think some of those ways may go against what we would consider to be fundamental or modern. However, to give it a new category, a new title, and create a new form of division is unneccesssary. I'd like to believe that a so-called modern and so-called postmodern could co-exist in the same place. It looks to me that creating these new lines, new categories of postmodern vs. modern is only creating division, instead of inviting one another to learn and journey together. I struggle with creating this new denomination (isn't that, in essence, what we're doing) and I hope that it doesn't cause a division like the charasmatics from the conservatives, the armenians from the calvanists, the whatevers from the whatevers...I feel like it's a slippery slope, and sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one that feels that way. I definitely identify with a lot of the "postmodern ways", but that doesn't mean I consider myself postmodern. I don't think I'll ever be fully postmodern, having grown up in a modern society. So why can I not embrace new ways as an old way person, and not be crucified or recategorized for it?
Just some light thoughts for a Saturday afternoon...hehehe...
If you want to check out Tony Jone's website, you can check it out here:
http://theoblogy.blogspot.com
rain
There's something about rain that is so unbelievalby comforting...Am I the only one who thinks that, or are there others? A few thoughts came to me tonight as I sat and listened to the rain start to come down...
Judson Rain Dances: When I went to Judson College, I had a few roommates who used to love to play in the rain with me. My girl Sara, Emily and Kristy. The four of us were just a few rain rats, and would go running around outside in the rain (even if it was lightning outside - I know, not the smartest). We would run all over campus, and I remember one of my favorite spots to run around would be by the athletics building - in the parking lot. There were these HUGE pot holes that would fill up with water, and they made the best splashing grounds. There was also a huge dip in the grass in front of the chapel that created the best natural slip n' slide known to man. We would just run, throw ourselves down and glide across it over and over, getting grass all in our clothes and in places that aren't really mentionable. But it was the greatest feeling. Running around in the rain. Nothing mattered. It didn't matter if you were wet, had grass all over you, had a test to be studying for, or had had a horrible day. That rain washed away all of it. Everything seemed to magically disappear when it rained...
Some of the greatest songs incorporate rain: "Raining in Baltimore" - Counting Crows. Such a great song. "Why Does It Always Rain on Me?" - Travis. Such a fun song to bop your head to. "No Rain" by Blind Melon. That song has so many memories attached to it, it's not even funny. And all I keep thinking about is some little girl in a Bumblee Bee suit. I'd like to see the Bumble Bee Girl on one of those "Where are they now" shows. And "London Rain" by Heather Nova. Ok, I know that's a cheesy Dawson's Creek-ish type song, but hey, I like it.
The "Rain" Nooma, by Rob Bell. That is, I think, my favorite Nooma. Everytime I reach a period in my life where I'm like, "Wow, I feel really distant from God" or there just feels like there has been a ton of "rain" in my life, I break out this Nooma because it is such an awesome reminder about how God wants us just the way we are. He wants us to come to him broken, our hearts bleeding wide open in front of him, no inhibitions, you know? And that he'll be there whispering, "I love you buddy. We're going to make it. Dad knows the way home."
So is this a fairly thought-filled blog to be posting at 1:30 in the morning...yeah, kind of. And I know that my entries have been a bit more reflective lately...I'll try to write something a bit more light-hearted and comical in the days to come. I'll have to share my car accident/funny politics story as well in the next couple of days.
But in the mean time, I'm going to enjoy the sound of the rain...such a great sound. Thanks for listening to my thoughts on it.
Judson Rain Dances: When I went to Judson College, I had a few roommates who used to love to play in the rain with me. My girl Sara, Emily and Kristy. The four of us were just a few rain rats, and would go running around outside in the rain (even if it was lightning outside - I know, not the smartest). We would run all over campus, and I remember one of my favorite spots to run around would be by the athletics building - in the parking lot. There were these HUGE pot holes that would fill up with water, and they made the best splashing grounds. There was also a huge dip in the grass in front of the chapel that created the best natural slip n' slide known to man. We would just run, throw ourselves down and glide across it over and over, getting grass all in our clothes and in places that aren't really mentionable. But it was the greatest feeling. Running around in the rain. Nothing mattered. It didn't matter if you were wet, had grass all over you, had a test to be studying for, or had had a horrible day. That rain washed away all of it. Everything seemed to magically disappear when it rained...
Some of the greatest songs incorporate rain: "Raining in Baltimore" - Counting Crows. Such a great song. "Why Does It Always Rain on Me?" - Travis. Such a fun song to bop your head to. "No Rain" by Blind Melon. That song has so many memories attached to it, it's not even funny. And all I keep thinking about is some little girl in a Bumblee Bee suit. I'd like to see the Bumble Bee Girl on one of those "Where are they now" shows. And "London Rain" by Heather Nova. Ok, I know that's a cheesy Dawson's Creek-ish type song, but hey, I like it.
The "Rain" Nooma, by Rob Bell. That is, I think, my favorite Nooma. Everytime I reach a period in my life where I'm like, "Wow, I feel really distant from God" or there just feels like there has been a ton of "rain" in my life, I break out this Nooma because it is such an awesome reminder about how God wants us just the way we are. He wants us to come to him broken, our hearts bleeding wide open in front of him, no inhibitions, you know? And that he'll be there whispering, "I love you buddy. We're going to make it. Dad knows the way home."
So is this a fairly thought-filled blog to be posting at 1:30 in the morning...yeah, kind of. And I know that my entries have been a bit more reflective lately...I'll try to write something a bit more light-hearted and comical in the days to come. I'll have to share my car accident/funny politics story as well in the next couple of days.
But in the mean time, I'm going to enjoy the sound of the rain...such a great sound. Thanks for listening to my thoughts on it.
10.28.2004
things to whoop about
ok, bad title for a blog entry.
But I didn't know what to call it. This is just an entry with some random things to check out...
New U2 video for Vertigo - if you roll your mouse over the title of this entry, it's hyperlinked so you can watch the video! It rocks the casbah!
A book I had recommended:
"Stop Dating The Church" - by Josh Harris
Another blog I read told me that the 24 Season 3 DVD set is coming out in December - not that many of you are into it. But I'm SOOO excited, and I have to get caught up on Season 3 before Season 4 comes out in January.
Lord of the Rings - Return of the King Extended Edition comes out December 14th. Check out the EE trailer at
http://www.lordoftherings.net
Ok, those are my tidbits for the day.
But I didn't know what to call it. This is just an entry with some random things to check out...
New U2 video for Vertigo - if you roll your mouse over the title of this entry, it's hyperlinked so you can watch the video! It rocks the casbah!
A book I had recommended:
"Stop Dating The Church" - by Josh Harris
Another blog I read told me that the 24 Season 3 DVD set is coming out in December - not that many of you are into it. But I'm SOOO excited, and I have to get caught up on Season 3 before Season 4 comes out in January.
Lord of the Rings - Return of the King Extended Edition comes out December 14th. Check out the EE trailer at
http://www.lordoftherings.net
Ok, those are my tidbits for the day.
10.25.2004
luggage
Tonight I watched the Nooma entitled "Luggage". For those of you who don't know what a Nooma is, they are these short, 10 minute films that function as mini-sermons. The "preacher" in the Noomas is Rob Bell - a pastor of a church called Mars Hill up in Grand Rapids, Michigan. He has created these artistic ways of looking at life - visually, and scripturally. He presents some amazing thoughts that dig into the fiber of your very being. I have yet to watch a Nooma that did not move me.
Luggage...This Nooma could not have come at a more opportune moment. It's funny how God knows exactly what we need to hear, when we need to hear it and how we need to hear it. I think I could have had every one of my friends tell me exactly what Rob Bell did. But there's something about hearing it from someone completely detatched from the situation that makes it sink in that much deeper. I am having this struggle right now - a battle of self, if you will - in dealing with some issues that are going on in my heart. I have "carried" these feelings and thoughts around with me for so long, that I feel myself becoming exactly what I had vowed I never wanted to be. I have allowed myself to dwell in thoughts that need to be released. I have carried around my luggage for so long, that I almost forget it's luggage, and that it can be left behind. It becomes an appendage, rather than luggage. Such an amazing visual in the Nooma - the idea of luggage. But there is a whole other aspect to the Nooma that I can't really get into because I don't want to ruin it for any of you that want to watch it.
However, I was just feeling very convicted tonight about the things that I hold so tightly too - grudges, anger, rebellion, etc. that God is saying, "Hey. I can take care of it. Let go."
Anybody else dealing with some luggage that seems attached at the hip? :)
Hehehe...Thanks for letting me share. It's not often I have to huge convictions going on at once. Like I said, that God, He's a funny one...knows what we need, when we need it...even if it seems like overload.
But thanks God...for still teaching me.
Luggage...This Nooma could not have come at a more opportune moment. It's funny how God knows exactly what we need to hear, when we need to hear it and how we need to hear it. I think I could have had every one of my friends tell me exactly what Rob Bell did. But there's something about hearing it from someone completely detatched from the situation that makes it sink in that much deeper. I am having this struggle right now - a battle of self, if you will - in dealing with some issues that are going on in my heart. I have "carried" these feelings and thoughts around with me for so long, that I feel myself becoming exactly what I had vowed I never wanted to be. I have allowed myself to dwell in thoughts that need to be released. I have carried around my luggage for so long, that I almost forget it's luggage, and that it can be left behind. It becomes an appendage, rather than luggage. Such an amazing visual in the Nooma - the idea of luggage. But there is a whole other aspect to the Nooma that I can't really get into because I don't want to ruin it for any of you that want to watch it.
However, I was just feeling very convicted tonight about the things that I hold so tightly too - grudges, anger, rebellion, etc. that God is saying, "Hey. I can take care of it. Let go."
Anybody else dealing with some luggage that seems attached at the hip? :)
Hehehe...Thanks for letting me share. It's not often I have to huge convictions going on at once. Like I said, that God, He's a funny one...knows what we need, when we need it...even if it seems like overload.
But thanks God...for still teaching me.
catching up
this will be the first of two thoughts today...it seems God does not have limits on how much he chooses to teach you within a day or two...
On catching up...I met with my high school girls small group yesterday. We were small, which initially made me sad. However, you know the verse...Wherever two or three are gathered, God is there...Ok, so that's a bit of a paraphrase, but you get the idea. We talked about all sorts of stuff, when suddenly, it hit me ton of bricks "I've been trying to play catch up." I was talking about my statistics class mostly (which I am currently failing due to my own lack of motivation). However, it seriously hit me - and hit me hard. So often, I don't understand what is going on in my life - just like I have NO CLUE what's going on in statistics. Sometimes, I am baffled by the events and challenges God brings about. I sit there and go, "Well, now what?" God asks me to do my homework...Spend time with Him, pray about it, spend time in the Word, etc. Just like Min Chen says about keeping up with my statistics homework. But I don't understand either of them. So what is the easiest thing to do when you don't understand something? Avoid it - avoid it like you would avoid the plague! However, the ramifications of this avoidance is that, come exam time, one tries to cram it all in, retaining very little, and doing poorly over all. How often do I do this in my walk with God? I believe altogether too often! I don't understand why something exists in my life - whether it be a situation, people, sin issue, challenge, struggle - whatever label you want to put on it - and I walk away from it entirely - or stuff it down. The problem is, when it becomes imperative to work through the situation, I try to "cram" my way through it, leaving me feeling a sense of urgency followed by failure. Why do we do this? Why do we skimp out on our "homework" when we know the end result is going to be this shallow and skimmed over version of Christianity? I don't know about you, but I believe it's a mixture of laziness and fear. I'm too lazy to work through the issues. I'm too lazy and fearful to deal with the pain that may come with it. So, I avoid it. And then, when push comes to shove, I skim over the material, and end up giving God a half-assed attempt at loving him and following him. Pardon my language - I don't usually use swear words because I think we have a dictionary full of overly flowery words that can be used instead. However, that word just emphasizes the severity I think lies at the heart of this issue. It just seemed to fit. I was thinking about how often we as college students will find excuses as to why we're not doing well in school. I've used the excuse that my teacher doesn't speak English very well. Does that limit me from learning the material on my own, or finding myself a tutor if I don't understand it? Nope. I've heard other students say, "But you make it so hard." However, if you really think about it, how much of it is really on our own shoulders? I had to take a good hard look at the amount of "homework" I've been doing lately, and how often I play this game of catch up. I don't want to play catch up any more. It won't be easy, and it will definitely be a stretch, but I want to learn every day. I want to be filled up every day. I want to be passionate every day. Can I get an Amen? :)
Just some thoughts to chew on.
On catching up...I met with my high school girls small group yesterday. We were small, which initially made me sad. However, you know the verse...Wherever two or three are gathered, God is there...Ok, so that's a bit of a paraphrase, but you get the idea. We talked about all sorts of stuff, when suddenly, it hit me ton of bricks "I've been trying to play catch up." I was talking about my statistics class mostly (which I am currently failing due to my own lack of motivation). However, it seriously hit me - and hit me hard. So often, I don't understand what is going on in my life - just like I have NO CLUE what's going on in statistics. Sometimes, I am baffled by the events and challenges God brings about. I sit there and go, "Well, now what?" God asks me to do my homework...Spend time with Him, pray about it, spend time in the Word, etc. Just like Min Chen says about keeping up with my statistics homework. But I don't understand either of them. So what is the easiest thing to do when you don't understand something? Avoid it - avoid it like you would avoid the plague! However, the ramifications of this avoidance is that, come exam time, one tries to cram it all in, retaining very little, and doing poorly over all. How often do I do this in my walk with God? I believe altogether too often! I don't understand why something exists in my life - whether it be a situation, people, sin issue, challenge, struggle - whatever label you want to put on it - and I walk away from it entirely - or stuff it down. The problem is, when it becomes imperative to work through the situation, I try to "cram" my way through it, leaving me feeling a sense of urgency followed by failure. Why do we do this? Why do we skimp out on our "homework" when we know the end result is going to be this shallow and skimmed over version of Christianity? I don't know about you, but I believe it's a mixture of laziness and fear. I'm too lazy to work through the issues. I'm too lazy and fearful to deal with the pain that may come with it. So, I avoid it. And then, when push comes to shove, I skim over the material, and end up giving God a half-assed attempt at loving him and following him. Pardon my language - I don't usually use swear words because I think we have a dictionary full of overly flowery words that can be used instead. However, that word just emphasizes the severity I think lies at the heart of this issue. It just seemed to fit. I was thinking about how often we as college students will find excuses as to why we're not doing well in school. I've used the excuse that my teacher doesn't speak English very well. Does that limit me from learning the material on my own, or finding myself a tutor if I don't understand it? Nope. I've heard other students say, "But you make it so hard." However, if you really think about it, how much of it is really on our own shoulders? I had to take a good hard look at the amount of "homework" I've been doing lately, and how often I play this game of catch up. I don't want to play catch up any more. It won't be easy, and it will definitely be a stretch, but I want to learn every day. I want to be filled up every day. I want to be passionate every day. Can I get an Amen? :)
Just some thoughts to chew on.
10.23.2004
ok, now!
It's a little late to be posting, so it may not make the most sense
However, this evening I took in the movied "I Heart Huckabees". This is not a movie I would recommend to most, as the language is quite rough, and there are a couple "scenes", However, this movie had me laughing - and dang hard! Jason Schwartzman (Rushmore) was really good, but I believe the highlight of the film for me had to be Mark Wahlberg. Yes, I did indeed say Mark Wahlberg. He was so brilliant in this movie! His character was so great, and somewhat differen than roles he has taken in the past. Such a great character...As far as what the movie was about...Hmmm...Good question. I have no idea. It was very "existential" in ways, exploring the ideas that everything is somehow connected, and made up of the same matter. It also explored the idea that the world is cruel and that nothing is connected, and we are alone in the universe. It also explored the idea of numming any sort of thinking/feeling by hitting each other in the face with giant rubber balls "ok, now!" This movie was bizarre, it was humorous, it was witty, it was dark, it was a whole slew of things all in one. Like I said, it's not REALLY a recommendation, but if any of you DO by chance see it, let me know...It's quite interesting.
Side note: Almost saw a brawl happen tonight...Felt bad for not doing anything to help the situation...there were fists thrown, and many unrepeatable words said...It was like a bad car accident...As bad as a fight would have been, couldn't stop watching.
Random thought for the night: Do you ever wonder if the things that erk you the most about someone/something, are the things that are a part of your own nature? For instance, if I get SUPER frustrated with a gossip, do you suppose that I may have the same problem and just don't realize it? Or if I can't stand a compulsive liar - is it possible that I struggle with it and am clueless about it? I was struggling with some "erks" tonight, and then began to wonder if maybe I manifest them as well, and am just unaware of them...Kinda frustrating, but also a possibility? Dunno...just a thought.
However, this evening I took in the movied "I Heart Huckabees". This is not a movie I would recommend to most, as the language is quite rough, and there are a couple "scenes", However, this movie had me laughing - and dang hard! Jason Schwartzman (Rushmore) was really good, but I believe the highlight of the film for me had to be Mark Wahlberg. Yes, I did indeed say Mark Wahlberg. He was so brilliant in this movie! His character was so great, and somewhat differen than roles he has taken in the past. Such a great character...As far as what the movie was about...Hmmm...Good question. I have no idea. It was very "existential" in ways, exploring the ideas that everything is somehow connected, and made up of the same matter. It also explored the idea that the world is cruel and that nothing is connected, and we are alone in the universe. It also explored the idea of numming any sort of thinking/feeling by hitting each other in the face with giant rubber balls "ok, now!" This movie was bizarre, it was humorous, it was witty, it was dark, it was a whole slew of things all in one. Like I said, it's not REALLY a recommendation, but if any of you DO by chance see it, let me know...It's quite interesting.
Side note: Almost saw a brawl happen tonight...Felt bad for not doing anything to help the situation...there were fists thrown, and many unrepeatable words said...It was like a bad car accident...As bad as a fight would have been, couldn't stop watching.
Random thought for the night: Do you ever wonder if the things that erk you the most about someone/something, are the things that are a part of your own nature? For instance, if I get SUPER frustrated with a gossip, do you suppose that I may have the same problem and just don't realize it? Or if I can't stand a compulsive liar - is it possible that I struggle with it and am clueless about it? I was struggling with some "erks" tonight, and then began to wonder if maybe I manifest them as well, and am just unaware of them...Kinda frustrating, but also a possibility? Dunno...just a thought.
10.12.2004
bubbles
I was sitting in the UWM union this morning, thinking about recent conversations I've had with people. I was remembering the other night when the topic of "bubbles" came up. Now, I'm a huge fan of bubbles, so I obviously got excited and suggested the event of blowing bubbles sometime in the near future. Those around me snickered at my childlike behavior, as they should have, but I was dead serious. I love bubbles. Don't know why, I just do. So while I was sitting in the union killing time due to a class that was cancelled, I decided to break out my journal. I began to draw bubbles on the page, and thought, "Wow, it's been a while since I've drawn anything in my journal, and one of the first things I decide to draw is bubbles. How juvenile." However, it was here that I had a bit of a revelation. Yes, it seems as though God can use even the most simple of things to catch my attention (for instance - duck butts - a post from a while back).
As I was drawing these bubbles in my journal, I began to think of the qualities of a bubble. They are extremely delicate, and only last for a few moments. However, they are incredibly beautiful. The have this faint rainbow strewn across them, and are extremely shiney. How fun! But I began to think about the beauty of them in comparison with the time that they last - not very long. They are also so unbelievably delicate. You can't grab onto one. You can't hold it and keep it forever. If you're lucky, one MAY land on you, but it doesn't last for long. It then hit me that this is so often how beauties in life are. God gives us these amazing gifts that are so fragile, so delicate, and we try to grab them and hold on to them for dear life. I have a few situations in my life that are like that right now. I say, "God, this is such a good thing, let me hold on to it!" and I feel as though He's saying, "It's a moment of beauty to let you know I'm here. There will be more to come in the future. But enjoy it for the time being, and then let go." This hit me pretty hard, as I tend to have a REALLY tight grasp on a few things in my life. But they're bubbles...They're delicate, momentary ways that God allows me to experience Him. They are ways for Him to say to me, "I'm here." However, if I begin to hold on to those bubbles, I'll become more intrigued with the bubble, than what it represents. It reminds me of a sermon a friend of mine once gave. He said that so often God gives us handles with which to grasp him with. However, sometimes we fall so in love with the handle, we become completely satisfied with the handle, that we forget what the handle is to.
So, bubbles...A simplistic thing that God used to catch my attention this morning. I think it's awesome how he wires us up to learn things so differently from one another, yet is so faithful to show us himself in all those different arenas. I'm such a visual learner (again, as we learned from the duck butts), and God is constantly faithful to show me through those things.
Rock on.
As I was drawing these bubbles in my journal, I began to think of the qualities of a bubble. They are extremely delicate, and only last for a few moments. However, they are incredibly beautiful. The have this faint rainbow strewn across them, and are extremely shiney. How fun! But I began to think about the beauty of them in comparison with the time that they last - not very long. They are also so unbelievably delicate. You can't grab onto one. You can't hold it and keep it forever. If you're lucky, one MAY land on you, but it doesn't last for long. It then hit me that this is so often how beauties in life are. God gives us these amazing gifts that are so fragile, so delicate, and we try to grab them and hold on to them for dear life. I have a few situations in my life that are like that right now. I say, "God, this is such a good thing, let me hold on to it!" and I feel as though He's saying, "It's a moment of beauty to let you know I'm here. There will be more to come in the future. But enjoy it for the time being, and then let go." This hit me pretty hard, as I tend to have a REALLY tight grasp on a few things in my life. But they're bubbles...They're delicate, momentary ways that God allows me to experience Him. They are ways for Him to say to me, "I'm here." However, if I begin to hold on to those bubbles, I'll become more intrigued with the bubble, than what it represents. It reminds me of a sermon a friend of mine once gave. He said that so often God gives us handles with which to grasp him with. However, sometimes we fall so in love with the handle, we become completely satisfied with the handle, that we forget what the handle is to.
So, bubbles...A simplistic thing that God used to catch my attention this morning. I think it's awesome how he wires us up to learn things so differently from one another, yet is so faithful to show us himself in all those different arenas. I'm such a visual learner (again, as we learned from the duck butts), and God is constantly faithful to show me through those things.
Rock on.
Resfest
For those of you film junkies out there, check out this website. It is for Resfest - a digital film festival put on by Res Magazine. Res Magazine is this really artistically done digital media type magazine. They've got all sorts of goodies in it! I highly recommend checking into it! Resfest will be held in a while mess of cities all across the globe, and will be in Chicago December 3-5 at the Chicago Museum of Contemporary Art. I think you can buy an all access pass for like $65 bucks, but you can also buy tickets for individual screenings which range from like $8-10. I'm quite excited as I missed it last year, and I hope to make it out there this year. So, just an FYI for all you film junkies that read this, and live close to Chicago.
10.07.2004
kite surfing
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v124/HazeyJane/kitesurfing1.jpg
So, I'm quite fascinated as most of you know with surfing...But I saw for the first time this summer - kite surfing. I love surfing, and I love kites. What more could you ask for? The kite kind of looks like a parachute, and the board kind of looks like a snowboard and they use the kites to gain speed & give them quite a bit of air in order to do tricks. It's quite fun to watch, and it's become quite a fascination for me. As I drive to school, I go down the shore of Lake Michigan, and there they are. How fun! So, i just thought I'd share about my new found fun-ness...
I put a link above for a picture of kite surfing...I have a feeling it won't actually show up in my blog. I'm not sure how to put a picture in my blog. But you can at least check out the website and see a fun picture of kite surfing.
So, I'm quite fascinated as most of you know with surfing...But I saw for the first time this summer - kite surfing. I love surfing, and I love kites. What more could you ask for? The kite kind of looks like a parachute, and the board kind of looks like a snowboard and they use the kites to gain speed & give them quite a bit of air in order to do tricks. It's quite fun to watch, and it's become quite a fascination for me. As I drive to school, I go down the shore of Lake Michigan, and there they are. How fun! So, i just thought I'd share about my new found fun-ness...
I put a link above for a picture of kite surfing...I have a feeling it won't actually show up in my blog. I'm not sure how to put a picture in my blog. But you can at least check out the website and see a fun picture of kite surfing.
10.06.2004
brain fizzle
humph. I haven't posted in a while. I don't have a whole lot worthwhile to post. I feel like I had a brain fizzle. Not too entirely sure what that is, but that just seems to be the most fitting description of how I feel right now.
I'll do some deep thinking in the next couple days, and come up with something profound. In the meantime, I leave you with this: "Click Clack Moo - Cows That Type" is an awesome book that teaches children to be manipulative. I highly recommend picking it up. Hahahah...Acutally. It's a great book. I love it. I'm slightly obsessed with children's books lately.
But I have my homework set out for me...Expect a semi-intellectual entry coming to a blogspot near you.
Rock on my friends. Rock on.
I'll do some deep thinking in the next couple days, and come up with something profound. In the meantime, I leave you with this: "Click Clack Moo - Cows That Type" is an awesome book that teaches children to be manipulative. I highly recommend picking it up. Hahahah...Acutally. It's a great book. I love it. I'm slightly obsessed with children's books lately.
But I have my homework set out for me...Expect a semi-intellectual entry coming to a blogspot near you.
Rock on my friends. Rock on.
9.28.2004
new holiday
HAPPY ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND COMING OUT ON DVD DAY!
In some respects, I think this holiday may just overshadow Lord of the Rings Return of the King coming out on DVD day, as the theatrical release of ROTK was quite disappointing (no fun extras!)
But Eternal Sunshine gets a thumbs up no matter what. I love that movie!
GO GET A COPY TODAY AND CELEBRATE!
A-whoo-hoo.
In some respects, I think this holiday may just overshadow Lord of the Rings Return of the King coming out on DVD day, as the theatrical release of ROTK was quite disappointing (no fun extras!)
But Eternal Sunshine gets a thumbs up no matter what. I love that movie!
GO GET A COPY TODAY AND CELEBRATE!
A-whoo-hoo.
9.27.2004
to every season...and such
a time for class, a time for a lecture, a time to have your cell phone on, and a time to get kicked out of film class...
Got kicked out of film class today...So much drama right now in my life, that just had to be the icing on the cake. My prof has a rule that if your cell phone goes off in class, she will kick you out and you will receive an F for the day. So my phone - which hardly ever rings - decided to go off during class (thanks for calling Jerica! hehehe) and alas, here I am...kicked out of my class with an F for the day. Joy.
So, with this unexpected amount of extra time, I figured I'd take some time to blog. A few things to write about today. Nothing of any great importance, but some stuff worthy of noting!
For those of you who are looking for a couple new worship songs, check out Mars Hill Music. It's awesome. There is a song by a guy named Troy Hatfield (formerly of Homesick, and some other bands I can't remember the names of) and the other is by Aaron Neiquist (formerly of, well, Aaron Neiquist - GO SOLO ARTISTS!). Both guys are worship leaders up at Mars Hill Bible Church in Grand Rapids, MI. They're really great songs, and they only cost a buck a piece. Check out the website here:
http://www.mhbcmi.org/worship/index.php
Here are a few albums that I've either purchased or rediscovered recently, that I think you should check out as well!
Garden State Soundtrack: This is such a great array of music. Artists include Remy Zero, The Shins, Frou Frou, Nick Drake, The Carey Brothers, Iron & Wine (great version of "Such Great Heights"), Thievery Corporation, Coldplay, and Simon & Garfunkle.
Turin Brakes, Ether Song LP: This was a recommend by Zach Braff - the writer, director & lead in Garden State. It has a very similar feel to Remy Zero, and they have one song called "Rain City" that is on the O.C. Soundtrack as well.
12 Stones, Potter's Field - I just picked up this album, kind of at random to be honest with you. It's alright. It's not something that I'd suggest everyone go out and pick up, but it's entertaining. I enjoy the song Lifeless.
Rediscovered Remy Zero, Villa Elaine - GREAT album. The song "Fair" that is on the Garden State soundtrack is also on this album. Defintely worth the time to check out. Great band. They also sing the theme song to Smallville, for those of you interested in that sort of thing.
Also, I'd like to mention that the first single "Vertigo" off the new U2 album has been released. You can download it now LEGALLY at iTunes. You can also watch the video at http://www.U2exit.com
Movies:
I haven't really seen many new movies lately. I just saw "Usual Suspects" for the first time. GREAT movie!
But I would like to mention that Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind comes out tomorrow. YAY! Also, for those of you interested (which I've learned are not many) Shawshank Redemption is being rereleased in theaters in New York, LA & Chicago. It is playing at the AMC River East in Chicago right now - worth the drive in my opinion. Alas, I have found no one else who finds it worthy.
Alrighty, my homework is lying on the floor, crying out to me to be read. Guess I should work on it, hey?
Until next time...
Got kicked out of film class today...So much drama right now in my life, that just had to be the icing on the cake. My prof has a rule that if your cell phone goes off in class, she will kick you out and you will receive an F for the day. So my phone - which hardly ever rings - decided to go off during class (thanks for calling Jerica! hehehe) and alas, here I am...kicked out of my class with an F for the day. Joy.
So, with this unexpected amount of extra time, I figured I'd take some time to blog. A few things to write about today. Nothing of any great importance, but some stuff worthy of noting!
For those of you who are looking for a couple new worship songs, check out Mars Hill Music. It's awesome. There is a song by a guy named Troy Hatfield (formerly of Homesick, and some other bands I can't remember the names of) and the other is by Aaron Neiquist (formerly of, well, Aaron Neiquist - GO SOLO ARTISTS!). Both guys are worship leaders up at Mars Hill Bible Church in Grand Rapids, MI. They're really great songs, and they only cost a buck a piece. Check out the website here:
http://www.mhbcmi.org/worship/index.php
Here are a few albums that I've either purchased or rediscovered recently, that I think you should check out as well!
Garden State Soundtrack: This is such a great array of music. Artists include Remy Zero, The Shins, Frou Frou, Nick Drake, The Carey Brothers, Iron & Wine (great version of "Such Great Heights"), Thievery Corporation, Coldplay, and Simon & Garfunkle.
Turin Brakes, Ether Song LP: This was a recommend by Zach Braff - the writer, director & lead in Garden State. It has a very similar feel to Remy Zero, and they have one song called "Rain City" that is on the O.C. Soundtrack as well.
12 Stones, Potter's Field - I just picked up this album, kind of at random to be honest with you. It's alright. It's not something that I'd suggest everyone go out and pick up, but it's entertaining. I enjoy the song Lifeless.
Rediscovered Remy Zero, Villa Elaine - GREAT album. The song "Fair" that is on the Garden State soundtrack is also on this album. Defintely worth the time to check out. Great band. They also sing the theme song to Smallville, for those of you interested in that sort of thing.
Also, I'd like to mention that the first single "Vertigo" off the new U2 album has been released. You can download it now LEGALLY at iTunes. You can also watch the video at http://www.U2exit.com
Movies:
I haven't really seen many new movies lately. I just saw "Usual Suspects" for the first time. GREAT movie!
But I would like to mention that Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind comes out tomorrow. YAY! Also, for those of you interested (which I've learned are not many) Shawshank Redemption is being rereleased in theaters in New York, LA & Chicago. It is playing at the AMC River East in Chicago right now - worth the drive in my opinion. Alas, I have found no one else who finds it worthy.
Alrighty, my homework is lying on the floor, crying out to me to be read. Guess I should work on it, hey?
Until next time...
9.26.2004
comments
Another fellow blogger posted this on his blog, and I thought since I have received a few of the same comments, I would do the same. For those of you who have said to me, "I've gone to your blog, but I can't comment." - do not lament! You too can comment! If you hit the button that says "Post a Comment" you will then be prompted to sign in. Do not be annoyed with yet another set of usernames and passwords...Simply look towards the bottom, note the section that allows you to post annonymously, and comment away.
Sometimes it get a little lonely here at my little blog...I'd love to hear your thoughts! And thanks to the troopers that do come and comment annonymously!
I'll post later as I have some fun CD reviews, as well as movie news.
Until then...Peace.
Sometimes it get a little lonely here at my little blog...I'd love to hear your thoughts! And thanks to the troopers that do come and comment annonymously!
I'll post later as I have some fun CD reviews, as well as movie news.
Until then...Peace.
9.18.2004
the life aquatic
Well my friends, it has been some time since I've posted.
Nothing to substantial to post about, however, I couldn't help but post about the new Wes Anderson movie that's supposed to come out around Christmas called "The Life Aquatic". It looks great, as I love the Wes Anderson style of movies (he did films such as Royal Tenanbaums, Rushmore, and Bottle Rocket). It's got a stellar cast, a good portion of them being "regulars" in Wes Anderson movies. Bill Murray, Owen Wilson, Angelica Houston, Cate Blanchet, Jeff Goldblum, William Defoe, as well as others. It's a movie about Bill Murray - and oceanography who leads a team of deep sea divers, adventurers & documentary film makers, when he finds out he has a son and has to learn how to be a father to him (Owen Wilson plays his son). I was so intrigued by the trailer. Should be a good one...
Check it out at http://www.apple.com/trailers
It looks hilarious.
Other movies to look out for:
I (heart) the Huckabees
Team America (the new version of Thundercats - hilarious!)
Mean Creek
The Incredibles
Nothing to substantial to post about, however, I couldn't help but post about the new Wes Anderson movie that's supposed to come out around Christmas called "The Life Aquatic". It looks great, as I love the Wes Anderson style of movies (he did films such as Royal Tenanbaums, Rushmore, and Bottle Rocket). It's got a stellar cast, a good portion of them being "regulars" in Wes Anderson movies. Bill Murray, Owen Wilson, Angelica Houston, Cate Blanchet, Jeff Goldblum, William Defoe, as well as others. It's a movie about Bill Murray - and oceanography who leads a team of deep sea divers, adventurers & documentary film makers, when he finds out he has a son and has to learn how to be a father to him (Owen Wilson plays his son). I was so intrigued by the trailer. Should be a good one...
Check it out at http://www.apple.com/trailers
It looks hilarious.
Other movies to look out for:
I (heart) the Huckabees
Team America (the new version of Thundercats - hilarious!)
Mean Creek
The Incredibles
9.07.2004
worry
I was having a chat with a good friend of mine...Worry. We talked about how much people worry, and are consumed by it. I began to think about how much it has become a part of our culture, our everyday nature. We can't exist without it, or so it seems. I began to think about my own life, and how much I am gripped by worry. If I don't currently have anything to worry, I will create something to worry about. But I began to think about how one would get over this, and it occured to me that it would need to be treated as any addiction is treated. Most often "cold turkey" doesn't work. For a short while maybe, but an addict who tries to quit cold turkey usually struggles so much, they end up failing and going back. But what does that look like for someone who is trying to quit worrying? Only worry everynow and then? Only allow yourself to worry about big things, not small things? I don't think this will necessarily work...But how does one go from a culture/nature that is consumed by worry to one that is worry-free? I have no answer for this. Part of me thinks we like to worry. Maybe it's really not that hard to let go of, but we just don't want to let it go because it's our only way of feeling like we have control over something. If you think about it, we can't control the future. We can't make this or that happen. I wonder, if by worrying, it's our way of owning it. We may not be able to control how the course runs, but we can at least put forth a lot of effort worrying about it - therefore owning the course. I don't know. Just some thoughts. I know that I worry WAY more than is healthy, if there is even a healthy level of worry. But trying to figure out how to move past worry - guess I have quite a journey a head of me in figuring that out.
Any tips would be greatly appreciated. Hehehe...
That's all for now...Now I'll go off and worry that you don't like my entry, or don't agree...
Just kidding.
Any tips would be greatly appreciated. Hehehe...
That's all for now...Now I'll go off and worry that you don't like my entry, or don't agree...
Just kidding.
9.06.2004
david crowder
I've been listening a lot to David Crowder Band's first CD (Can You Hear Us)...It's actually not mine. I stole it from a friend for a while...Don't worry, he knows I have it.
Anyway, there are these two songs that have really struck a chord (no pun intended) in my heart...The first one is "I Need Words" which is the first, really short song on the album. I've posted the words below because they're just so good. So simple, which is what I'm drawn to lately, but so beautiful...
"I need words as wide as sky
I need language as large as this longing inside
I need a voice that's bigger than mine
And I need a song to sing You
That I've yet to find...
I need You
Oh, I need You
I need You
Oh, I need You
To be here now...
To hear me now..."
The other song is "Obsession". I think it's such a great song musically (there is a great guitar thing througout it...I'm not sure what it's called...Noodling?) Anyway, the song just resonates with me. It's not exactly where I'm at in my life, but rather, where I hope to be.
If you have not heard this album, I highly recommend picking it up. I will eventually purchase my own copy...
Anyway, there are these two songs that have really struck a chord (no pun intended) in my heart...The first one is "I Need Words" which is the first, really short song on the album. I've posted the words below because they're just so good. So simple, which is what I'm drawn to lately, but so beautiful...
"I need words as wide as sky
I need language as large as this longing inside
I need a voice that's bigger than mine
And I need a song to sing You
That I've yet to find...
I need You
Oh, I need You
I need You
Oh, I need You
To be here now...
To hear me now..."
The other song is "Obsession". I think it's such a great song musically (there is a great guitar thing througout it...I'm not sure what it's called...Noodling?) Anyway, the song just resonates with me. It's not exactly where I'm at in my life, but rather, where I hope to be.
If you have not heard this album, I highly recommend picking it up. I will eventually purchase my own copy...
9.04.2004
what to do?
So, I have the entire day off tomorrow...absolutely no plans. There is part of me that wishes I DID have plans, but alas, I do not. However, have you ever experienced those moments where you could do ANYTHING you want, and you have too many ideas that you can't decide which would be most profitable and fun?
For instance, I have the whole day free tomorrow. Now, there are a few things I could do. I could get a lot of things accomplished that need to happen. I need to run a whole mess of errands and do some cleaning. That would be the productive thing to do. I would like to do some sort of art project - whether it be photography or some sculpture stuff. That would be the artistic thing. Then there's the same old same old - renting a movie (hey, I wonder if season 3 of 24 is out yet). That would be the relaxing thing to do. I have homework. That would be the scholastic thing to do.
What to do?
I just wish someone would call me, and make plans for me.
That would make it so much easier.
The lazy thing to do.
*Note: This post is really about nothing. The funny thing to do.
Ok, maybe it's not really that funny...
For instance, I have the whole day free tomorrow. Now, there are a few things I could do. I could get a lot of things accomplished that need to happen. I need to run a whole mess of errands and do some cleaning. That would be the productive thing to do. I would like to do some sort of art project - whether it be photography or some sculpture stuff. That would be the artistic thing. Then there's the same old same old - renting a movie (hey, I wonder if season 3 of 24 is out yet). That would be the relaxing thing to do. I have homework. That would be the scholastic thing to do.
What to do?
I just wish someone would call me, and make plans for me.
That would make it so much easier.
The lazy thing to do.
*Note: This post is really about nothing. The funny thing to do.
Ok, maybe it's not really that funny...
9.01.2004
insomniac
The last line in my last entry proves to be qutie difficult tonight. It is now 4:30am, and I have yet to get any sleep in. I am not normally the kind of person to struggle with insomnia. In fact, just the opposite. I can usually sleep any time, anywhere. However, for some unknown reason, my eyes cannot stay closed tonight.
Now, I'm not some super charasmatic type person, and I'm usually really hesitant to say things like this, but I believe God kept me up for a reason. What that reason is, I'm not entirely sure, but I felt this overwhelming urge to pray for specific people. I seem to have a lot of friends right now who are going through a lot - especially in ministry situations - that are just all around crappy. Makes me think something big is about to happen, and our little friend downstairs isn't too keen on it.
But I'm not sure I've ever experienced what I experienced this evening/morning. I was completely wide awake, tossing and turning, trying my very hardest to sleep, when I finally said "This is ridiculous!" and decided to get up. The minute I decided I was just going to embrace being awake, I felt such a strong tug to pray for these dear friends in my life. And that's just what I did. These were not hour long prayers, or wordy and emotional prayers - just simple ones. Simple prayers for a God who needs nothing more than simple faith - a faith that He can and will work through every situation.
I also thanked God that in a period in my life where transition is proving to give me less and less free time, He gave me a moment with Him. It only goes to show that God's timing IS INDEED perfect - even if it's at 4 in the morning. Will I be tired tomorrow? Yes. Will I struggle to still praise him when I'm sitting at my desk punching numbers into a computer and my eyes will hardly stay open? Probably. But my hope and prayer is I will be reminded of what a priviledge it was to have this time of community with God.
Tonight came a point in my life where I needed it most...and it was so sweet.
My prayer is that I have more "insomniac" times to come...
Now, I'm not some super charasmatic type person, and I'm usually really hesitant to say things like this, but I believe God kept me up for a reason. What that reason is, I'm not entirely sure, but I felt this overwhelming urge to pray for specific people. I seem to have a lot of friends right now who are going through a lot - especially in ministry situations - that are just all around crappy. Makes me think something big is about to happen, and our little friend downstairs isn't too keen on it.
But I'm not sure I've ever experienced what I experienced this evening/morning. I was completely wide awake, tossing and turning, trying my very hardest to sleep, when I finally said "This is ridiculous!" and decided to get up. The minute I decided I was just going to embrace being awake, I felt such a strong tug to pray for these dear friends in my life. And that's just what I did. These were not hour long prayers, or wordy and emotional prayers - just simple ones. Simple prayers for a God who needs nothing more than simple faith - a faith that He can and will work through every situation.
I also thanked God that in a period in my life where transition is proving to give me less and less free time, He gave me a moment with Him. It only goes to show that God's timing IS INDEED perfect - even if it's at 4 in the morning. Will I be tired tomorrow? Yes. Will I struggle to still praise him when I'm sitting at my desk punching numbers into a computer and my eyes will hardly stay open? Probably. But my hope and prayer is I will be reminded of what a priviledge it was to have this time of community with God.
Tonight came a point in my life where I needed it most...and it was so sweet.
My prayer is that I have more "insomniac" times to come...
8.31.2004
introverted nature
Having an introverted nature comes at the most inconvenient times, I've found.
I had the most amazing day today. I went to the art museum in Milwaukee with a friend, and we walked all around the city.
We had some great conversation about God, relationships, and life in general. I then headed to church and talked with a great friend for about an hour about God, the church, and our role in culture. I then headed to my weekly college/career aged night at church, and had all sorts of energy at the beginning of the night.
We then headed out as usual afterwords, and I swear, it was like hitting a brick wall. Suddenly, I had no desire or ability in me to be social. My ability to create conversation, to participate in what was going on around me vanished. This is something I have dealt with before, but not really picked up on it until after the fact. Tonight, when it hit me, I looked at my friend and said, "Man, I am having a major introverted moment."
I know that we do not have to let our personality, how we're wired up, dictate how we act...But sometimes those are hard things to jump over. Wondering if anyone has any of the same experiences, or if I'm alone in the introverted battle...
Most of my friends are extroverts...How weird is that. Sounds like it could be a good book title...I'll have to ponder that one a bit. But for now, I must sleep.
I had the most amazing day today. I went to the art museum in Milwaukee with a friend, and we walked all around the city.
We had some great conversation about God, relationships, and life in general. I then headed to church and talked with a great friend for about an hour about God, the church, and our role in culture. I then headed to my weekly college/career aged night at church, and had all sorts of energy at the beginning of the night.
We then headed out as usual afterwords, and I swear, it was like hitting a brick wall. Suddenly, I had no desire or ability in me to be social. My ability to create conversation, to participate in what was going on around me vanished. This is something I have dealt with before, but not really picked up on it until after the fact. Tonight, when it hit me, I looked at my friend and said, "Man, I am having a major introverted moment."
I know that we do not have to let our personality, how we're wired up, dictate how we act...But sometimes those are hard things to jump over. Wondering if anyone has any of the same experiences, or if I'm alone in the introverted battle...
Most of my friends are extroverts...How weird is that. Sounds like it could be a good book title...I'll have to ponder that one a bit. But for now, I must sleep.
THX 1138
A friend of mine was reading Wired magazine and posted on his website about a movied called "THX 1138" - the first film by George Lucas in 1971. Supposedly it's going to be re-released sometime in September. You can read the Wired article here:
http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/12.09/play.html?pg=2
Or, if you want, I think you can watch the trailer for it at http://www.ultimatedvd.org.
I watched the trailer and read the article and am greatly intrigued. It definitely looks like it was ahead of it's time.
Check it out, and let me know what you think!
http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/12.09/play.html?pg=2
Or, if you want, I think you can watch the trailer for it at http://www.ultimatedvd.org.
I watched the trailer and read the article and am greatly intrigued. It definitely looks like it was ahead of it's time.
Check it out, and let me know what you think!
8.29.2004
C2
Hey one and all...
I saw this commercial before I saw the movie "The Village" as well as before I saw the movie "Donnie Darko". It's for Coke's new low carb C2 drink. I was really impressed with the commercial, and thought it was really creative. The song has made quite a buzz about as well...I posted a link in the title of this entry, or you can check out the commercial at the address listed below. It's pretty pixelated, and may be kind of pokey depending on the speed of your computer. But check it out:
http://www.cokec2.com/pages/commercials.shtml
In a time where you have to weed through millions of bad commercials, it's cool to see some good ones emerging. It's rather unfortunate that it's for such a crappy product.
I saw this commercial before I saw the movie "The Village" as well as before I saw the movie "Donnie Darko". It's for Coke's new low carb C2 drink. I was really impressed with the commercial, and thought it was really creative. The song has made quite a buzz about as well...I posted a link in the title of this entry, or you can check out the commercial at the address listed below. It's pretty pixelated, and may be kind of pokey depending on the speed of your computer. But check it out:
http://www.cokec2.com/pages/commercials.shtml
In a time where you have to weed through millions of bad commercials, it's cool to see some good ones emerging. It's rather unfortunate that it's for such a crappy product.
8.27.2004
beauty in breakdown
I was emailing a friend of mine today. I was explaining to him some of the things that have been going through my brain lately. I have really been struggling in my journey with God, and I shared with him a few things that I've been struggling with. One of the main things is that I feel is that the church has taken things so fundamental to me - so basic & core to my relationship with God, and have perverted it, trampled on it, and turned it into something not even recognizable anymore.
I have lost my connection to these things...They feel so rigid. So structured. It doesn't seem beautiful.
I began to throw a lot of questions out. I then came to the realization that it is in this period of questioning that I believe God draws us closer. When we come to him unveiled and honest, it is then that we can have an awesome sense of community with Him. Not that God can't take a hold of us through the barriers we ourselves put up, but it makes it that much sweeter when we come to him in an honest fashion.
There is a song from Garden State called "Let Go" by Frou Frou. There is a line in the song that says, "It's alright because there's beauty in breakdown." I was thinking about that, and how it can kind of relate to God. I think there is beauty when we are broken before Him. I think it's a beautiful thing when someone can be so brutally honest with God, and expect honesty in return. I began to think about how honest I've been with Him, and I have a ways to go. But it's something that I've decided is important to me. Looking for beauty in my journey with God has become such a huge desire...Even if it's beauty in breakdown.
I have lost my connection to these things...They feel so rigid. So structured. It doesn't seem beautiful.
I began to throw a lot of questions out. I then came to the realization that it is in this period of questioning that I believe God draws us closer. When we come to him unveiled and honest, it is then that we can have an awesome sense of community with Him. Not that God can't take a hold of us through the barriers we ourselves put up, but it makes it that much sweeter when we come to him in an honest fashion.
There is a song from Garden State called "Let Go" by Frou Frou. There is a line in the song that says, "It's alright because there's beauty in breakdown." I was thinking about that, and how it can kind of relate to God. I think there is beauty when we are broken before Him. I think it's a beautiful thing when someone can be so brutally honest with God, and expect honesty in return. I began to think about how honest I've been with Him, and I have a ways to go. But it's something that I've decided is important to me. Looking for beauty in my journey with God has become such a huge desire...Even if it's beauty in breakdown.
8.24.2004
random tidbits
I'm kind of in a random mood today...I don't know why. I've been listening to really random music, I've been watching really random things, and have been really random yearnings. I declare today Random Day.
Here are a few random tidbits you may not know about me, that I thought to incorporate. Today's entry was inspired by Troy Hatfield, who on his blog, likes to include weird and random things people may not know about him. So thanks Troy...You are inspirational (doesn't that sound like a bunch of crap? Well, it's not).
Random Tidbits:
1. I'm somewhat oc about pen color. If I start a notebook, checkbook, journal, whatever in one color of ink, it must remain in that ink color..
2. I do not like revolving doors. There are only a few things in this world that make me uncomfortable. Clowns and revolving doors are two of them.
3. I like to collect books. I don't necessarily read them (though I enjoy reading), but I have a LOT of books that I own and have never read. One in particular, I catch a lot of flack for. I have an amazing illustrated British edition of 1984, and have yet to read it.
4. I have a slight fettish for paper. When I was little and would have birthday parties, I would always ask my parents or friends for paper for my birthday. No one really believed me until I got older. Bless Sue DeLong for getting me a ream of paper for my 22 birthday. She rules.
5. I firmly believe you're never too old to play with toys. I still own plenty of Legos.
6. I used to be extrememly gullable. Ok, most of you know that. Ok, it's still true.
7. I once was the co-owner of a newspaper. Sure, it was called something like, "The Buddy News" and it was entirely made up, and not one person bought a subscription, but hey, how many of you can put that on your resume?
8. I'm a terrible board game player. I LOVE to play games, but I'm not very good at them and I get ULTRA competitive. One of the worst ones is Scrabble. It's my favorite game, but I've been known to get a little bent out of shape... :)
9. My knowledge of history and geography are TERRIBLE. Anyone want to help me? Please?!
10. I like to make lists about random information, as well as learn about other people's randomness.
YAY FOR RANDOM DAY.
Here are a few random tidbits you may not know about me, that I thought to incorporate. Today's entry was inspired by Troy Hatfield, who on his blog, likes to include weird and random things people may not know about him. So thanks Troy...You are inspirational (doesn't that sound like a bunch of crap? Well, it's not).
Random Tidbits:
1. I'm somewhat oc about pen color. If I start a notebook, checkbook, journal, whatever in one color of ink, it must remain in that ink color..
2. I do not like revolving doors. There are only a few things in this world that make me uncomfortable. Clowns and revolving doors are two of them.
3. I like to collect books. I don't necessarily read them (though I enjoy reading), but I have a LOT of books that I own and have never read. One in particular, I catch a lot of flack for. I have an amazing illustrated British edition of 1984, and have yet to read it.
4. I have a slight fettish for paper. When I was little and would have birthday parties, I would always ask my parents or friends for paper for my birthday. No one really believed me until I got older. Bless Sue DeLong for getting me a ream of paper for my 22 birthday. She rules.
5. I firmly believe you're never too old to play with toys. I still own plenty of Legos.
6. I used to be extrememly gullable. Ok, most of you know that. Ok, it's still true.
7. I once was the co-owner of a newspaper. Sure, it was called something like, "The Buddy News" and it was entirely made up, and not one person bought a subscription, but hey, how many of you can put that on your resume?
8. I'm a terrible board game player. I LOVE to play games, but I'm not very good at them and I get ULTRA competitive. One of the worst ones is Scrabble. It's my favorite game, but I've been known to get a little bent out of shape... :)
9. My knowledge of history and geography are TERRIBLE. Anyone want to help me? Please?!
10. I like to make lists about random information, as well as learn about other people's randomness.
YAY FOR RANDOM DAY.
garden state, pt. 2
I was finally able to see Garden State. I'm not really sure how to tell the world how much I loved this movie. There were parts I could have done without, but overall, it was such an amazing movie. It covered such an array of emotions. I fell in love with Zach Braff's character as well as Natalie Portman's character ("Do you know what I do when I need to feel unique?") I think that is is a movie that a good part of our generation can relate too...We may not have been involved in the same things that the characters are, however, I think the emotions experienced are altogether too familiar. Zach Braff...what an amazing talent. He wrote, directed and acted in it - it was his baby - and it took off.
I would love to suggest this movie to everyone I possible can, however, it is a bit gritty. There are a few scenes that are a little uncomfortable and the language is a little rough. However, if you're a film nut, this is a must see. The camera work is amazing, the storyline is great...Praise all around.
I laughed very hard (all I have to say is the flaming arrow scene just about made me pee my pants). I cried more than once. And it made me want to find a quarry, wear a garbage bag and yell at the rain...
Let me know if any of you see it, and what your thoughts are.
I would love to suggest this movie to everyone I possible can, however, it is a bit gritty. There are a few scenes that are a little uncomfortable and the language is a little rough. However, if you're a film nut, this is a must see. The camera work is amazing, the storyline is great...Praise all around.
I laughed very hard (all I have to say is the flaming arrow scene just about made me pee my pants). I cried more than once. And it made me want to find a quarry, wear a garbage bag and yell at the rain...
Let me know if any of you see it, and what your thoughts are.
8.18.2004
happy times
As one who is extremely addicted to the Olympics, moreso than in years past, these are happy times when a competitor from Waukesha, Wisconsin takes the gold in the all around mens gymnastics. ROCK ON FOR THAT! I have been watching all different events - swimming, volleyball, tennis, weight lifting, even skeet shooting...I missed the men taking the silver the other night, but I couldn't miss the all arounds tonight. And what a show it was. After being in first, dropping down to 12th, and then back up to 4th, only to take the gold - couldn't have been any more exciting. Congratulations Paul Hamm!
The Olympics...what a great invention. More to come...More fun times.
The Olympics...what a great invention. More to come...More fun times.
8.17.2004
garden state
I have yet to see this movie. I just found a listing on Zach Braff's blog that says it will be coming to Milwaukee on the 27th of August. I can't wait.
If you're a fan of the movie Garden State - whether you've seen it or not - you should check out Zach Braff's blog. It's pretty cool. It's a bit vulgar, so for those of you who do not wish to stumble upon that, I'll warn you ahead of time. It's kind of fun though to read the thoughts of Zach Braff, so if you so desire, check it out.
You can click on the title of my blog entry to get to Zach's blog, or you can go to this address:
http://gardenstate.typepad.com
Other movie reviews:
Napoleon Dynamite - I was a HUGE advocate of this movie, as it looked HILARIOUS to me. I was hugely disappointed however, as the laughs were minimal. In retrospect, there are some great quotes that came from it, but it's defintely a "wait until DVD" type movie.
Riding Giants - for all you documentary fans or surfing fans, this is a fun little documentary on big wave riding. It's not like this ultra creative, super artsy film or anything - but it's just a fun look at big wave riding history. Check it out. It rocks.
The Village - I have heard that SOOOOO many people hate this movie - literally ripping it to shreds. I have my complaints about it (biggest one being Adrien Broody), but I actually kind of enjoyed it. I like movies that don't have the best resolutions - that leave you a little upset. I also like movies that mess with you, like the movie "The Game", where you think you know what's going on, and then you're like "What the crap?!"
That's all I've seen in the theaters recently. I did see Triplets of Bellville on DVD though, and thought it was great. The animation was really exaggerated and funky, and there's no dialogue in the film, but it's really kind of a clever little movie.
You should check it out!
Ok, that's all for now. Have a pleasant evening one and all.
If you're a fan of the movie Garden State - whether you've seen it or not - you should check out Zach Braff's blog. It's pretty cool. It's a bit vulgar, so for those of you who do not wish to stumble upon that, I'll warn you ahead of time. It's kind of fun though to read the thoughts of Zach Braff, so if you so desire, check it out.
You can click on the title of my blog entry to get to Zach's blog, or you can go to this address:
http://gardenstate.typepad.com
Other movie reviews:
Napoleon Dynamite - I was a HUGE advocate of this movie, as it looked HILARIOUS to me. I was hugely disappointed however, as the laughs were minimal. In retrospect, there are some great quotes that came from it, but it's defintely a "wait until DVD" type movie.
Riding Giants - for all you documentary fans or surfing fans, this is a fun little documentary on big wave riding. It's not like this ultra creative, super artsy film or anything - but it's just a fun look at big wave riding history. Check it out. It rocks.
The Village - I have heard that SOOOOO many people hate this movie - literally ripping it to shreds. I have my complaints about it (biggest one being Adrien Broody), but I actually kind of enjoyed it. I like movies that don't have the best resolutions - that leave you a little upset. I also like movies that mess with you, like the movie "The Game", where you think you know what's going on, and then you're like "What the crap?!"
That's all I've seen in the theaters recently. I did see Triplets of Bellville on DVD though, and thought it was great. The animation was really exaggerated and funky, and there's no dialogue in the film, but it's really kind of a clever little movie.
You should check it out!
Ok, that's all for now. Have a pleasant evening one and all.
8.16.2004
new found addictions
I'm back home. Back to life. Back to reality. Does that make anyone else want to break out in a really bad 80's song?
I was thinking about this a lot yesterday, and after having read my brother's blog this morning, thought I too shall post about it. I have a few new TV addictions - one being the Olympics. My mom and I sit there stressing out with quite a few events, but especially gymnastics. We often wonder why we watch them when we get so nervous and upset for them! So we have been watching quite a bit of the Olympics in our house. Mostly gymnastics and swimming. However, this morning my dad and I seemed to catch a bit of skeet shooting. How exciting.
Another new found addiction would be celebrity poker. I have no idea why I got addicted to this show, but I can't get enough of it. I was watching it for quite some time yesterday, and I just enjoy the fact that I like to see actors doing what they do best (acting, not poker) and winning money for charities. The banter back and forth is pretty funny. My favorite person is Lauren (I don't remember her last name). She plays the mom on The Gilmore Girls.
And finally, another show I rather enjoy watching is "Overhauled". This comes from some odd fascination I have with watching car shows. I was huge into Orange County Choppers for a while, and now it's the show Overhauled. It's kind of like the MTV show "Pimp My Ride" only better. They take someone's piece of junk car, and play some sort of prank on them so they have no clue why their car is missing. Friends and family are usually in on it, and these guys restore the car to look pretty slick! I love watching the reactions when they see their newly remodeled car. I was even really close to tears yesterday watching it because they guy who had his car restored started to cry when he saw his wife, and then he started to cry again when he saw his dad (who he had gotten the car from). How lame am I that I'm crying at a car show?
Not to mention my addiction to the "I Love the whatever-the-decade". I never used to be that addicted to TV. I'd watch it every now and then. What am I going to do come fall when the new season of 24 comes out, as well as the new show Lost? I'm going to be a TV addict! YOWZA!
Anyone else have any TV addictions?
I was thinking about this a lot yesterday, and after having read my brother's blog this morning, thought I too shall post about it. I have a few new TV addictions - one being the Olympics. My mom and I sit there stressing out with quite a few events, but especially gymnastics. We often wonder why we watch them when we get so nervous and upset for them! So we have been watching quite a bit of the Olympics in our house. Mostly gymnastics and swimming. However, this morning my dad and I seemed to catch a bit of skeet shooting. How exciting.
Another new found addiction would be celebrity poker. I have no idea why I got addicted to this show, but I can't get enough of it. I was watching it for quite some time yesterday, and I just enjoy the fact that I like to see actors doing what they do best (acting, not poker) and winning money for charities. The banter back and forth is pretty funny. My favorite person is Lauren (I don't remember her last name). She plays the mom on The Gilmore Girls.
And finally, another show I rather enjoy watching is "Overhauled". This comes from some odd fascination I have with watching car shows. I was huge into Orange County Choppers for a while, and now it's the show Overhauled. It's kind of like the MTV show "Pimp My Ride" only better. They take someone's piece of junk car, and play some sort of prank on them so they have no clue why their car is missing. Friends and family are usually in on it, and these guys restore the car to look pretty slick! I love watching the reactions when they see their newly remodeled car. I was even really close to tears yesterday watching it because they guy who had his car restored started to cry when he saw his wife, and then he started to cry again when he saw his dad (who he had gotten the car from). How lame am I that I'm crying at a car show?
Not to mention my addiction to the "I Love the whatever-the-decade". I never used to be that addicted to TV. I'd watch it every now and then. What am I going to do come fall when the new season of 24 comes out, as well as the new show Lost? I'm going to be a TV addict! YOWZA!
Anyone else have any TV addictions?
8.13.2004
mountian driving
So, I've determined that I'm not a huge fan of driving through the mountains at night. Dusk is pretty cool, because you can still see where you're going. However, last night as I was on my way to Boulder, I ended up feeling like it was in the middle of nowhere, driving right through the middle of the Rocky mountains on some little windy road. SCARY!
Well, I will be home tomorrow. One more night stay in exciting Kearney Nebraska! WHOO HOO!
Today's entry will be kind of short as my brain is on overload right now. I've had WAY too much thinking time while driving. Now, I can't turn it off! hehehe...
I'm anxious to be home and to see you all.
The trip was fun, but there's definitely a comfort in being home.
See you soon.
Well, I will be home tomorrow. One more night stay in exciting Kearney Nebraska! WHOO HOO!
Today's entry will be kind of short as my brain is on overload right now. I've had WAY too much thinking time while driving. Now, I can't turn it off! hehehe...
I'm anxious to be home and to see you all.
The trip was fun, but there's definitely a comfort in being home.
See you soon.
8.10.2004
thoughts
I'm sitting at a Starbucks in Hawthorne, CA close to where I'm staying, and thought I'd post about some of the things I was thinking about - both serious and non-serious things alike...
Fisrt off - surfing. I went to see "Riding Giants" which is a surfing documentary about big wave riding. It was really good, but also kind of frightening some of the things these men attempted. Then, I went to the surfing competition in Huntington Beach. It was so awesome to watch, but at one point, Kelly Slater's foot slipped on the wax on his board, he fell, smacking his head on his board. He gave the thumbs up afteward to let everyone know he was ok, but it looked quite painful. So, last night was my first opportunity to go surfing while out here. Granted, the main reason why I decided against it was because I was TOTALLY wiped out. I was so tired yesterday - I zonked out about 10. So the thought of all the energy that goes into surfing didn't really appeal to me. Plus, I'd only be able to do it once, and then have to go home. That's no fun. So I opted not to do it. However, I have to say that part of me got scared to do it. Weird, eh? I usually get really stubborn when it comes to fear like that, and push through it and just do it. But yeah, kinda weird because I think after watching "Riding Giants" and seeing Kelly go down and stuff, I got a little freaked out.
Political unrest...I've thought a lot about politics since I've been here. Maybe it's because I've seen SO many advocates at store fronts trying to get people to register to vote. However, I was discussing with a friend yesterday that I can't remember a time where there has been such a battle over the presidential position. I was pretty young for the "controversial" presidents, and last year's election had it's typical battles, but nothing like this. I can't remember a time where there was such hatred on both sides for the other candidate. I know there's been a lot that's happened in our country within the past few years that have caused people to want to get involved, but are they really? How much do these people really know? I mean, I can't really talk as I do not know everything either. But I hear people talking about why they like Kerry so much, and part of me wonders, "Do they really think he'll implement his plans?" Same thing with Bush. Sometimes I think people get so swept away with what they want to hear, that they don't think about the reality of what might really happen. I was listening to some of Kerry's "plans" and thought to myself, "Is that really possible in his time?" He has these plans that will be carried out through the year 2020. What happens if his successor doesn't like his plan, and that was that? Dunno...I'm not saying we can't try to bring about change, but sometimes I think we get carried away with the romantic ideas that are presented. I myself hope to find out more, as I am currently undecided in my vote. I don't want to NOT vote just because I don't know who to vote for, you know?
Movies vs Music...Kind of funny. While on my trip out here, I've had the opportunity to meet a girl who works for Revolution Studios. She gets to help out on films (she actually worked on the Lord of the Rings Two Towers Extended Edition DVD). While talking to her, I realized how much I really want to work on movies. Even though I'm on the fence about how much I want to move out here, I really want to work on films. However, music has crept back in. It's always been there I suppose. It's weird because I probably know a bit more about music than I do about movies. I LOVE it when people want to learn about music and what I'm listening to. I could talk about it for hours. However, I could talk about movies for hours as well I suppose.
School...I've become satisfied with the route that I'm taking in school. It's one of those things where I desire to do so many things, but I think having an English degree (hopefully creating really strong writing skills - which I lack a bit right now) with a bunch of crazy film knowledge will be helpful if I decide to go into film, but also helpful for writing in whatever capacity. People are always looking for good writers, right? I was thinking a lot about what I wanted to do in school, and have decided that I'm going to continue with the same path that I'm doing...Which is good! I can't really afford to change again.
Well, these are some of my thoughts. They were more for me than anyone else. They were also kind of a stream of consciousness as I sit here having NOT had a cup of coffee yet! It's too hot to drink - darn it! Anyway, I'm about to head to Huntington Beach. I didn't get a chance to check out the surf museum when we were at the surf competition, so I'm headed back down there to check it out. Last day here today...Kinda sad about that, but I'm also anxious to get home. So yeah, Huntington Beach this morning, checking out a record store called Amoeba Records this afternoon, and then I'm going to a punk concert at a place called "The Gig" tonight - a friend of a friend of a friend (hehehehe) is in the band. Should be kinda fun.
I'm out.
Later.
Fisrt off - surfing. I went to see "Riding Giants" which is a surfing documentary about big wave riding. It was really good, but also kind of frightening some of the things these men attempted. Then, I went to the surfing competition in Huntington Beach. It was so awesome to watch, but at one point, Kelly Slater's foot slipped on the wax on his board, he fell, smacking his head on his board. He gave the thumbs up afteward to let everyone know he was ok, but it looked quite painful. So, last night was my first opportunity to go surfing while out here. Granted, the main reason why I decided against it was because I was TOTALLY wiped out. I was so tired yesterday - I zonked out about 10. So the thought of all the energy that goes into surfing didn't really appeal to me. Plus, I'd only be able to do it once, and then have to go home. That's no fun. So I opted not to do it. However, I have to say that part of me got scared to do it. Weird, eh? I usually get really stubborn when it comes to fear like that, and push through it and just do it. But yeah, kinda weird because I think after watching "Riding Giants" and seeing Kelly go down and stuff, I got a little freaked out.
Political unrest...I've thought a lot about politics since I've been here. Maybe it's because I've seen SO many advocates at store fronts trying to get people to register to vote. However, I was discussing with a friend yesterday that I can't remember a time where there has been such a battle over the presidential position. I was pretty young for the "controversial" presidents, and last year's election had it's typical battles, but nothing like this. I can't remember a time where there was such hatred on both sides for the other candidate. I know there's been a lot that's happened in our country within the past few years that have caused people to want to get involved, but are they really? How much do these people really know? I mean, I can't really talk as I do not know everything either. But I hear people talking about why they like Kerry so much, and part of me wonders, "Do they really think he'll implement his plans?" Same thing with Bush. Sometimes I think people get so swept away with what they want to hear, that they don't think about the reality of what might really happen. I was listening to some of Kerry's "plans" and thought to myself, "Is that really possible in his time?" He has these plans that will be carried out through the year 2020. What happens if his successor doesn't like his plan, and that was that? Dunno...I'm not saying we can't try to bring about change, but sometimes I think we get carried away with the romantic ideas that are presented. I myself hope to find out more, as I am currently undecided in my vote. I don't want to NOT vote just because I don't know who to vote for, you know?
Movies vs Music...Kind of funny. While on my trip out here, I've had the opportunity to meet a girl who works for Revolution Studios. She gets to help out on films (she actually worked on the Lord of the Rings Two Towers Extended Edition DVD). While talking to her, I realized how much I really want to work on movies. Even though I'm on the fence about how much I want to move out here, I really want to work on films. However, music has crept back in. It's always been there I suppose. It's weird because I probably know a bit more about music than I do about movies. I LOVE it when people want to learn about music and what I'm listening to. I could talk about it for hours. However, I could talk about movies for hours as well I suppose.
School...I've become satisfied with the route that I'm taking in school. It's one of those things where I desire to do so many things, but I think having an English degree (hopefully creating really strong writing skills - which I lack a bit right now) with a bunch of crazy film knowledge will be helpful if I decide to go into film, but also helpful for writing in whatever capacity. People are always looking for good writers, right? I was thinking a lot about what I wanted to do in school, and have decided that I'm going to continue with the same path that I'm doing...Which is good! I can't really afford to change again.
Well, these are some of my thoughts. They were more for me than anyone else. They were also kind of a stream of consciousness as I sit here having NOT had a cup of coffee yet! It's too hot to drink - darn it! Anyway, I'm about to head to Huntington Beach. I didn't get a chance to check out the surf museum when we were at the surf competition, so I'm headed back down there to check it out. Last day here today...Kinda sad about that, but I'm also anxious to get home. So yeah, Huntington Beach this morning, checking out a record store called Amoeba Records this afternoon, and then I'm going to a punk concert at a place called "The Gig" tonight - a friend of a friend of a friend (hehehehe) is in the band. Should be kinda fun.
I'm out.
Later.
8.09.2004
getty & slater
Went to a place called "The Getty" on Friday in Santa Monica - one of the coolest places I've seen recently. It was awesome. It is a free museum, with the most BEAUTIFUL gardens! We didn't even go into the museum...We just checked out the gardens. It was gorgeous and I could totally see myself spending LOTS of time there! Check out my pictures at www.photobucket.com - type in TJD as the album.
east side takes west side...
On Saturday, I watched the battle of east coast surfers vs west coast surfers on Saturday. We stood along the shore and watched as the surfers got creative with the little waves they had. Both X Games experiences were by far the coolest things I've gotten to be a part of. The surf competition was killer. I got burnt to a crisp after sitting in the sun for about 5 hours, but it was well worth it. I stood about 30 feet away from Kelly Slater - a legend in the game of surfing, a 6 time world champion. HOW COOL IS THAT? I got a bit star struck, and couldn't stop talking about it. But it was so fun to watch, and we eventually made it down to the water, and stood in the water to watch the competition. We were front row. Doesn't get much better than that. So, that was definitely a most memorable experience.
We then headed to San Diego. That was quite the adventure...Not one I'm sure I'd like to relive. It took us about 3 hours to get there from Huntington, when it should have taken about an hour (gotta love CA traffic), and when we got there, no vacancy in almost every hotel we tried. After many attempts, we ended up at a most luxurious Motel 6 (note sarcasm here). That hotel was the most expensive of all my hotels on this trip - how crazy is that? Oh well... We had an awesome dinner after that however - can't remember the name - but this really cute little place. We then walked around down by the marina, and just enjoyed the beautiful weather of San Diego. The next morning, we headed home and decided to meet up with some fo Sara's friends. Ate lunch at In and Out - a must if one is in California. We went to a bookstore that I had wanted to run to - Book Soup (it's on Sunset Strip) and that was really cool. Sara's friend and I both bought a couple books we had been seeking, and we ran into Leelee Sobieski who was shopping for Flannery O'Conner. That's the only famous person I've seen outside of the X Games. So that was kind of cool. Then we drove up past the Hollywood sign, and enjoyed the view from up there. We then headed to this little cafe called The Borgeois Pig (if you check out my pictures online, you can see the cafe there...). It was SUPER cute - really dimly light and very artsy. Very cute. I also had the best chai I've ever had. Definitely worth the trip.
Today I'm in Pasedena - that's where I'm writing this from. My brother has a friend who lives here, and so I met up with him for lunch which ended up just being smoothies. We tried two different places for lunch - the first one had moved, and the second place wasn't open on Mondays. How random! It was a good little walk around Pasedena though, so I enjoyed it. We had good conversation. I then headed here to post on my blog and update my pictures.
We are headed to Manhattan beach tonight for my first attempt at surfing. Due to the schedule I kept while I was here, this is the first chance I've had. So that should be fun. Tomorrow is some last minute shopping, possibly trying to catch the movie "Garden State" and then a concert at The Gig on Melrose tomorrow night. Still more fun to come. Hopefully I'll get another blog in here before I leave, but we'll see. I've been thinking a LOT about the political unrest in our country (maybe it was because of the guy standing on a street corner in San Diego yelling "Bush is a coward!" that made me keep thinking about it). I'd like to post some thoughts I've had on that as well. But these are turning into novels - with updates and all that jazz. So this will be all for the night.
Hope you are all doing well. Miss you guys - see ya soon!
east side takes west side...
On Saturday, I watched the battle of east coast surfers vs west coast surfers on Saturday. We stood along the shore and watched as the surfers got creative with the little waves they had. Both X Games experiences were by far the coolest things I've gotten to be a part of. The surf competition was killer. I got burnt to a crisp after sitting in the sun for about 5 hours, but it was well worth it. I stood about 30 feet away from Kelly Slater - a legend in the game of surfing, a 6 time world champion. HOW COOL IS THAT? I got a bit star struck, and couldn't stop talking about it. But it was so fun to watch, and we eventually made it down to the water, and stood in the water to watch the competition. We were front row. Doesn't get much better than that. So, that was definitely a most memorable experience.
We then headed to San Diego. That was quite the adventure...Not one I'm sure I'd like to relive. It took us about 3 hours to get there from Huntington, when it should have taken about an hour (gotta love CA traffic), and when we got there, no vacancy in almost every hotel we tried. After many attempts, we ended up at a most luxurious Motel 6 (note sarcasm here). That hotel was the most expensive of all my hotels on this trip - how crazy is that? Oh well... We had an awesome dinner after that however - can't remember the name - but this really cute little place. We then walked around down by the marina, and just enjoyed the beautiful weather of San Diego. The next morning, we headed home and decided to meet up with some fo Sara's friends. Ate lunch at In and Out - a must if one is in California. We went to a bookstore that I had wanted to run to - Book Soup (it's on Sunset Strip) and that was really cool. Sara's friend and I both bought a couple books we had been seeking, and we ran into Leelee Sobieski who was shopping for Flannery O'Conner. That's the only famous person I've seen outside of the X Games. So that was kind of cool. Then we drove up past the Hollywood sign, and enjoyed the view from up there. We then headed to this little cafe called The Borgeois Pig (if you check out my pictures online, you can see the cafe there...). It was SUPER cute - really dimly light and very artsy. Very cute. I also had the best chai I've ever had. Definitely worth the trip.
Today I'm in Pasedena - that's where I'm writing this from. My brother has a friend who lives here, and so I met up with him for lunch which ended up just being smoothies. We tried two different places for lunch - the first one had moved, and the second place wasn't open on Mondays. How random! It was a good little walk around Pasedena though, so I enjoyed it. We had good conversation. I then headed here to post on my blog and update my pictures.
We are headed to Manhattan beach tonight for my first attempt at surfing. Due to the schedule I kept while I was here, this is the first chance I've had. So that should be fun. Tomorrow is some last minute shopping, possibly trying to catch the movie "Garden State" and then a concert at The Gig on Melrose tomorrow night. Still more fun to come. Hopefully I'll get another blog in here before I leave, but we'll see. I've been thinking a LOT about the political unrest in our country (maybe it was because of the guy standing on a street corner in San Diego yelling "Bush is a coward!" that made me keep thinking about it). I'd like to post some thoughts I've had on that as well. But these are turning into novels - with updates and all that jazz. So this will be all for the night.
Hope you are all doing well. Miss you guys - see ya soon!
8.06.2004
bucky takes the cake
last night was worth it all.
4:55pm. Staples center ahead of us. No clue what lay inside. As Sara and I made our way through multiple gate checks, we headed into what was one of the coolest nights I've had in a LONG time. I went to the X Games.
August 5th was the begining of the X Games in Los Angeles. It was something I had put on my list of things I wanted to see at least once in my life, and last night I made it. Last night's events were the skateboard vert finals and moto X best trick finals. The vert finals were first. We made our way to our seats. Unbelievable seats - couldn't ask for better - if we were there to see Moto X. However, we could see absolutely NOTHING of the half pipe. Quite disappointed. I looked at Sara and said, "There's no way we're staying here." So, we made our way up to the general admission area, which we expected to be the nosebleed seats. They ended up being really good seats. We could see right into the halfpipe - a good aerial view. So, we sat up there and watched. I heard the first name - Shaun White. Oh my word - I got to watch Shaun White skate live in person. How cool. The next few names, I didn't know. Then they said Andy Macdonald - rock on. Bob Burnquist - ROCK ON! And then, best of all - my favorite - Bucky Lasek. I was so excited - I was getting to watch these four guys skate! Not to mention some other really good skaters, including Pierre Luc Gagnon and Sandro Dios. As the night progressed, it looked as though Pierre Luc was going to take the gold. He had skated 3 really good runs. Shaun White did very poorly, but he had just come back from a really bad injury and hadn't been in the pipe for about 4 months. Bob Burnquist took two runs with injury. On the first run it looked as though he hurt his hamstring or something...The second run it looked as though he hurt his ankle. But he was a crowd pleaser all the same. Then, Bucky Lasek. His first two runs weren't the best (they were taking the best of three runs). After Sandro Dios - the only skater other than Tony Hawk to do a 900 - attempted after his time had ended to do a 900 to please the crowd (which unfortunately he was unable to pull off - that would have been amazing to see) - Bucky got in the pipe, and gave a most amazing run, taking the gold! The crowd went nuts! It was awesome! My digital camera didn't take very good shots for some reason, but my friend Sara got amazing shots! You can check them out at my online photo album. The website is www.photobucket.com, and where it says "Album:" type in TJD and my pictures will come up. I'll warn you ahead of time - they're HUGE right now. I have to resize them...But you can at least see them for right now, if you want. Here are the final standings of the skate competition:
1. Bucky Lasek—95
2. Pierre Luc Gagnon—93.66
3. Rune Glifberg—92.33
4. Andy Macdonald—92
5. Bob Burnquist—88
6. Chris Gentry—84.33
7. Mathias Ringstrom—83.66
8. Jake Brown—79
9. Sandro Dias—77.66
10. Shaun White—66.66
You can also check out more fun stuff at www.expn.com
Next up, Moto X. Sara and I had arrived there kind of late, and didn't get to see any of the tents that were out in front. So, we thought to ourselves, "The riders will probably save the better, more complex tricks for the end." and we decided to miss the first few riders so we could check out the tents outside. Big mistake we found out later. Chuck Carothers, one of the first riders up, attempted a trick he had been unable to land previously, and each time he had tried, had hurt himself seriously. I'm not sure what the trick is called, but supposedly he let go of the bike, rotated himself fully around the seat of the bike, and came down and landed it. While we were outside, we heard the crowd go nuts. It made the news the next morning as one of the biggest events, and here, we had missed it. Ah well...Can't catch everything right? We stayed for most of it, but it was a somewhat slow moving event, and we weren't too entirely into it, so we left.
Over all, and AMAZING night. Most definitely memorable.
Tomorrow I'm headed to the surf competition in Huntington, and the rest of the day and evening in San Diego. I think we're going to hit the zoo. I was able to hang out with Ryan Zaar in Santa Monica yesterday which was cool - we hung out on third street and down at the Pier which are both kind of touristy, but fun to see. We played on the swings which was a lot of fun, and just walked around. I'm headed back there today to check out some stuff I missed seeing yesterday. So, more fun ahead. Lots more to see and do. I'll keep you guys posted. Hopefully I'll get some time to take some more artistic shots rather than just snapshots...I feel like such a tourist though, and I chicken out to take pictures.
Anyway, I'm so enjoying myself, but I miss you all a lot.
I will continue to share my journeys as they happen.
Much love to you all.
4:55pm. Staples center ahead of us. No clue what lay inside. As Sara and I made our way through multiple gate checks, we headed into what was one of the coolest nights I've had in a LONG time. I went to the X Games.
August 5th was the begining of the X Games in Los Angeles. It was something I had put on my list of things I wanted to see at least once in my life, and last night I made it. Last night's events were the skateboard vert finals and moto X best trick finals. The vert finals were first. We made our way to our seats. Unbelievable seats - couldn't ask for better - if we were there to see Moto X. However, we could see absolutely NOTHING of the half pipe. Quite disappointed. I looked at Sara and said, "There's no way we're staying here." So, we made our way up to the general admission area, which we expected to be the nosebleed seats. They ended up being really good seats. We could see right into the halfpipe - a good aerial view. So, we sat up there and watched. I heard the first name - Shaun White. Oh my word - I got to watch Shaun White skate live in person. How cool. The next few names, I didn't know. Then they said Andy Macdonald - rock on. Bob Burnquist - ROCK ON! And then, best of all - my favorite - Bucky Lasek. I was so excited - I was getting to watch these four guys skate! Not to mention some other really good skaters, including Pierre Luc Gagnon and Sandro Dios. As the night progressed, it looked as though Pierre Luc was going to take the gold. He had skated 3 really good runs. Shaun White did very poorly, but he had just come back from a really bad injury and hadn't been in the pipe for about 4 months. Bob Burnquist took two runs with injury. On the first run it looked as though he hurt his hamstring or something...The second run it looked as though he hurt his ankle. But he was a crowd pleaser all the same. Then, Bucky Lasek. His first two runs weren't the best (they were taking the best of three runs). After Sandro Dios - the only skater other than Tony Hawk to do a 900 - attempted after his time had ended to do a 900 to please the crowd (which unfortunately he was unable to pull off - that would have been amazing to see) - Bucky got in the pipe, and gave a most amazing run, taking the gold! The crowd went nuts! It was awesome! My digital camera didn't take very good shots for some reason, but my friend Sara got amazing shots! You can check them out at my online photo album. The website is www.photobucket.com, and where it says "Album:" type in TJD and my pictures will come up. I'll warn you ahead of time - they're HUGE right now. I have to resize them...But you can at least see them for right now, if you want. Here are the final standings of the skate competition:
1. Bucky Lasek—95
2. Pierre Luc Gagnon—93.66
3. Rune Glifberg—92.33
4. Andy Macdonald—92
5. Bob Burnquist—88
6. Chris Gentry—84.33
7. Mathias Ringstrom—83.66
8. Jake Brown—79
9. Sandro Dias—77.66
10. Shaun White—66.66
You can also check out more fun stuff at www.expn.com
Next up, Moto X. Sara and I had arrived there kind of late, and didn't get to see any of the tents that were out in front. So, we thought to ourselves, "The riders will probably save the better, more complex tricks for the end." and we decided to miss the first few riders so we could check out the tents outside. Big mistake we found out later. Chuck Carothers, one of the first riders up, attempted a trick he had been unable to land previously, and each time he had tried, had hurt himself seriously. I'm not sure what the trick is called, but supposedly he let go of the bike, rotated himself fully around the seat of the bike, and came down and landed it. While we were outside, we heard the crowd go nuts. It made the news the next morning as one of the biggest events, and here, we had missed it. Ah well...Can't catch everything right? We stayed for most of it, but it was a somewhat slow moving event, and we weren't too entirely into it, so we left.
Over all, and AMAZING night. Most definitely memorable.
Tomorrow I'm headed to the surf competition in Huntington, and the rest of the day and evening in San Diego. I think we're going to hit the zoo. I was able to hang out with Ryan Zaar in Santa Monica yesterday which was cool - we hung out on third street and down at the Pier which are both kind of touristy, but fun to see. We played on the swings which was a lot of fun, and just walked around. I'm headed back there today to check out some stuff I missed seeing yesterday. So, more fun ahead. Lots more to see and do. I'll keep you guys posted. Hopefully I'll get some time to take some more artistic shots rather than just snapshots...I feel like such a tourist though, and I chicken out to take pictures.
Anyway, I'm so enjoying myself, but I miss you all a lot.
I will continue to share my journeys as they happen.
Much love to you all.
8.04.2004
all here, all good
hello one and all...
I'm finally up and running. I attempted to get on while in Colorado, and after spending 45 min on the phone with Tmobile tech support, no luck. I tried again in my hotel in Las Vegas, and for some reason, the Stratosphere did not like my choice of credit card. So, after having a dream last night about a successful attempt, I made my way to a Starbucks on the corner of Rosecrans and Ocean Gate in Hawthorne California, and a most helpful gentleman at Tmobile figured out why I couldn't connect, and I was good to go!
So, here I am.
Crazy. Where do I start? First of all, I made it safely. No problems along the way. It was actually quite a pleasant drive. I threw in "August and Everything After" by Counting Crows, and was on my way. I have to say, I sported the K-Do wristband the whole way out - just for you Kel. For those of you who don't know what that is, don't worry about it - it's a long story, and it's not a big deal. But I thought it'd be a funny, somewhat symbolic thing to do. Love ya Kel! I drove behind a TON of "English" semitrucks too - it was INSANE! But it was kind of funny because it made me laugh...a guy I know named Mark told me he was recently at a rodeo with an Englishman, so it made me envision that as I rode behind these trucks. The drive was rather long (the first day I was in my car for about 15 or 16 hours). I stayed in a hidden Extended Stay (it was EXTREMELY hard to find - my drive might have actually only been about 14 hours if I had found it initially) in Westminster, CO. I woke up the next morning, spent some time at a Starbucks near my hotel, and then hit the road again for a 12 hour drive to Las Vegas. I purchased "The Da Vinci Code" on CD before I left home, and listened to that most of the way. I must say, I'm TOTALLY enjoying it. I have one disc left though, so I'll let you know what I think come the end of the story. I must say, the mountains of Colorado were amazing! The first two hours I drove in silence as I drove down I-70, and took in the landscape before me. God is so cool...What an amazing creation! Las Vegas...I was somewhat overwhelmed when I arrived at Las Vegas at 10pm, as it was really big and REALLY bright! I was also suprised as to how large my hotel was. I had NO CLUE it was going to be that big. I've never stayed in a hotel that was that large. Being as late as it was, I headed up to the 20th floor and found my room and crashed. I slept in the next morning until the last possible minute, checked out and headed to LA. That was the quickest drive - took it in one shot. I got to LA kind of early, so I found the house where I'm staying, and then drove around to become familiar with the area. I found an Old Navy, a stop that I had intended to make before I left on my trip but didn't get to. So, I wasted some time there, and eventually met up with my friend for dinner, and thus began my adventure in California.
Went to Chipotle for dinner, headed to Manhattan Beach and walked around (the sound of the waves...could there be anything sweeter?), and then to Starbucks for after dinner coffee! I seriously should document how many different Starbucks I can visit. It's sick really - I think it's a disease! I work there for heaven's sake - you'd think I'd be sick of the place. But there's something so comforting, when you're away from home, to have something so familiar. I just chose Starbucks.
I'm not really sure what's ahead...Today is kinda laid back. I'm meeting up with my friend for lunch, and she is giving me a tour of where she works. I don't know what our plans for the evening are yet. Something fun I'm sure. She's kind of a crazy girl- but that's what I love about her! We might actually hit the beach - not sure. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with a friend of mine who's out here on business (Ryan Zaar) and we're headed to Santa Monica for the day. Tomorrow night is the beginning of the X-Games (skateboard vert finals). Rock on for that...I'm so stoked.
Anyway, I'll probably come here daily to check email and (hopefully) blog. I have a TON to write about to be honest. I had a lot of thinking time on the way out, thought about a lot, and so I have a lot to write about. But I thought I'd at least give a generic update for the first one. So for those of you who actually read this, I'm in California, it's beautiful, and the fun's about to begin.
Love to you all.
tj
I'm finally up and running. I attempted to get on while in Colorado, and after spending 45 min on the phone with Tmobile tech support, no luck. I tried again in my hotel in Las Vegas, and for some reason, the Stratosphere did not like my choice of credit card. So, after having a dream last night about a successful attempt, I made my way to a Starbucks on the corner of Rosecrans and Ocean Gate in Hawthorne California, and a most helpful gentleman at Tmobile figured out why I couldn't connect, and I was good to go!
So, here I am.
Crazy. Where do I start? First of all, I made it safely. No problems along the way. It was actually quite a pleasant drive. I threw in "August and Everything After" by Counting Crows, and was on my way. I have to say, I sported the K-Do wristband the whole way out - just for you Kel. For those of you who don't know what that is, don't worry about it - it's a long story, and it's not a big deal. But I thought it'd be a funny, somewhat symbolic thing to do. Love ya Kel! I drove behind a TON of "English" semitrucks too - it was INSANE! But it was kind of funny because it made me laugh...a guy I know named Mark told me he was recently at a rodeo with an Englishman, so it made me envision that as I rode behind these trucks. The drive was rather long (the first day I was in my car for about 15 or 16 hours). I stayed in a hidden Extended Stay (it was EXTREMELY hard to find - my drive might have actually only been about 14 hours if I had found it initially) in Westminster, CO. I woke up the next morning, spent some time at a Starbucks near my hotel, and then hit the road again for a 12 hour drive to Las Vegas. I purchased "The Da Vinci Code" on CD before I left home, and listened to that most of the way. I must say, I'm TOTALLY enjoying it. I have one disc left though, so I'll let you know what I think come the end of the story. I must say, the mountains of Colorado were amazing! The first two hours I drove in silence as I drove down I-70, and took in the landscape before me. God is so cool...What an amazing creation! Las Vegas...I was somewhat overwhelmed when I arrived at Las Vegas at 10pm, as it was really big and REALLY bright! I was also suprised as to how large my hotel was. I had NO CLUE it was going to be that big. I've never stayed in a hotel that was that large. Being as late as it was, I headed up to the 20th floor and found my room and crashed. I slept in the next morning until the last possible minute, checked out and headed to LA. That was the quickest drive - took it in one shot. I got to LA kind of early, so I found the house where I'm staying, and then drove around to become familiar with the area. I found an Old Navy, a stop that I had intended to make before I left on my trip but didn't get to. So, I wasted some time there, and eventually met up with my friend for dinner, and thus began my adventure in California.
Went to Chipotle for dinner, headed to Manhattan Beach and walked around (the sound of the waves...could there be anything sweeter?), and then to Starbucks for after dinner coffee! I seriously should document how many different Starbucks I can visit. It's sick really - I think it's a disease! I work there for heaven's sake - you'd think I'd be sick of the place. But there's something so comforting, when you're away from home, to have something so familiar. I just chose Starbucks.
I'm not really sure what's ahead...Today is kinda laid back. I'm meeting up with my friend for lunch, and she is giving me a tour of where she works. I don't know what our plans for the evening are yet. Something fun I'm sure. She's kind of a crazy girl- but that's what I love about her! We might actually hit the beach - not sure. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with a friend of mine who's out here on business (Ryan Zaar) and we're headed to Santa Monica for the day. Tomorrow night is the beginning of the X-Games (skateboard vert finals). Rock on for that...I'm so stoked.
Anyway, I'll probably come here daily to check email and (hopefully) blog. I have a TON to write about to be honest. I had a lot of thinking time on the way out, thought about a lot, and so I have a lot to write about. But I thought I'd at least give a generic update for the first one. So for those of you who actually read this, I'm in California, it's beautiful, and the fun's about to begin.
Love to you all.
tj
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