trying

I haven't been able to write much lately. Often times, I become overwhelmed with everything that's plaguing my brain, causing me to feel somewhat paralyzed, and the only thing I can do is listen to music and continue contemplating everything in the universe.

So, I've been listening to a lot of music lately, and I can't seem to get this song out of my head. I watched a documentary on homelessness the other day that a friend of mine made, and the song "Several Ways to Die Trying" by Dashboard Confessional plays in the background. I can't seem to shake the song. For whatever reason, I've woken up multiple mornings with the song in my head, and find that while I'm in moments of silence, I can't help but hum it to myself.

For those of you who have not heard the song, here are the lyrics:

Several Ways to Die Trying - Dashboard Confessional

Pacific Sun, you should have warned us,
It gets so cold here.
And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire.
And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued.
We are, we are, invisible.
Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
Take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads
They built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts
With their shining lies,
While closing our caskets cold and tight.
But I'm dying to live.

Pacific sun, you should have warned us,
These heights are dizzying,
And the climb can kill you
Long before the fall.

And our trails go unmarked
And unmapped and covered
Just as soon as they are crossed.

We are, we are, intriguing.
We are, we are, desirable.
Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
Take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads
They built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts
With their shining lies,
While closing our caskets cold and tight.
But I'm dying to live.